Missing you comes
in violent waves,
shades of vibrant
blues, and broken
down déjà vu's.

I ran my hands across the large gruesome scar he had stretch across his back. Out of his entire muscular built body I massage, That healed **** was what I remember best. You see, I massage number of bodies and I pick up people's pain pretty well through my experience and profession. and through that scar, I can tell he's been through life's hard lessons. Throughout the massage, I could sense the attraction. By the way I rub through his body he was having intense reactions. I slide my hands towards the back of neck,  his hands slid up my arms and put my hands on his chest. And for a moment, I felt I was holding him, For a minute, I felt I belong to him. And before I knew it, I was close to him and each  second, I wanted him. Before it could go any further, I stop him and said to him:

I have to be honest, I do want you
The times that we shared secret eye contact before, I already wanted you
But before we go any further, I have to do this
I signal him to lay on his belly and gave that rememberable scar a passionate kiss
As he turned toward me while laying on the table I said:

If you can't tell what I am doing
I'm kissing the memory of your past that probably was ruined
Not only am I kissing this scar but part of your soul that was broken apart
I'm giving you what I desperately need, I brought his hands to my heart
And said
But we can't go any further, if you can't kiss back these invisible scars

Kiss them with every intention to heal them like over time yours had healed
Hold me, protect me and give me the feeling of being safe, help me allow me to feel. give me a reason to tell you what I been through, Than make love to me passionately, I want to know how it feels to cry in front of another and spiritually connect to it's full capacity
But if you can't do that for me
Show me I am good enough to love by ending this now
Let go of lust if you here are to play with me and  just mess around
Prove to me you accept me, by letting me go and leave out of this building without hurting my soul
Give me the opportunity to give you boundaries and trust again, Promise me that out of this I can make a new friend.
**** my loneliness with your company
Bury my pain with your gradual love for me
And In return, I will give you it back with a %100 pure heart
But whatever you do, If you touch me like that again have every intentions to heal my invisible scars

I always send her hello letters

As she writes to me goodbye

You'd think by now I would know better

Than to ever question why

After all this time together

I would still find time to write

And send her hello letters

While she writes to me goodbye

Be soft.
Don't let the world make you hard.
Don't let the pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that, even though the rest of the world may disagree,
you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

I breathe her.
I need her more than I want her.
I want her more than I need her.
I love her more than I could have ever loved, and yet I love her more.
She is my dream, my dream is her.
More than I can spell or whisper, paint or write..
She's more than a wish.
my light, dim and bright.
She's more than I could have ever imagined.
She's more beautiful than a winter's morning.. More hypnotic than an Autumns breeze.
She's my spring today and forever.. She's the summer I will never forget.
The only one I'll ever keep.