I try to push it inside of me
but it is too ******
Why was I made this way?
Is it because Eve was hungry?
Starving for love

I try to take it out
but my fingers are stumbling
Never been good
in times of gushing
I hear your change of tone
Is it because you don’t want me?
Is it because of me?
I am starving for love

It is much lighter now
but that is always deceiving
I love the way you love me
but hate how you leave me
starving for love

It is hard to believe you’re sad
when you are sad all the time
I think your clock is broken
Let’s fix it
Keep talking to me
I need you

It is always a different number-
one that I don’t have
I dream of you often
as I would dream of the dead

It is so confusing
how I want to tell you
but I don’t want you to know

I want to leave you
Move on with my life
We both know I’ve created a better one

I feel so miserable
Nothing is going to change
I feel so caught up in
all my rage
… grow up

I feel like I deserve
to die and if not
I deserve to hurt
I feel so overwhelmed
I need something
to cover my head
…. grow up

I feel empty inside
and yet so full
I could explode
What I feel right now
is all I will ever know
… grow up
Grow up
Grow up
Grow up
GROW UP
GROW UP
GROW UP
GROW UP

It is strange to think
that I will never again
smoke a cigarette
for as long as you
and I live

Does the universe
expand?
Or do we just
push it to its
limitlessness?

Already I feel
so unworthy of you
You are an angel
but I am no god

Maybe I will be better-
benevolent and unenvious
I would be anything
for you

It’s strange to think
that I could produce good
into a world
that has brought me to my knees
I now cradle you in my heart
and fall asleep

I let you escape
out of my grasp
to perpetuate
your task

I let you escape
No fluid left
Too much time
has passed

I let you escape
I couldn’t believe
Oh, you were so sick
and pretty

I let you escape
out of my grasp
I didn’t know I deserved
to say no