Parking lot, waiting
Just
Kiss me if you have the time

I wish for an empty promise
I wish to hear it spoken out loud
I wish I didn't know it was a lie

I wish somedays I wouldn't cry
I wish those days I would laugh instead
I wish the world was a better place
I wish the people knew what it was like to be me

I wish for a whole mind
I wish for a fuller heart
I wish I wasn't as insane as they thought

And
I wish my wishes would come true

You are dead
But you are not gone

Because I see you everywhere,
in my mind and in my world

I was once her
Now I'm not

But I still
Love her
And the person
She became
And the person
She could be

And life
carrys on

I waited for you by the swing
The oldest among the young
And I think
I am ashamed of my youth

My feet covered the clouds
All the way up, eyes closed
wrangling hands
This is what freedom means

Being mortified
Chasing it nonetheless
Shutting out the world
Pinpointing it to my feet

Be young
they told her

still as a silent clock
a thin paper slipping to the floor

time was running out, but no,
stay young, they said

a million cherry blossom
uprooting themselves inside her

spilling over, the tide was turning
the wind blew her hair across her face

she dutifully watered her flowers
wilting, drooping, dying

she wished
she wished they were stronger

being young meant she never learned
about the Poison

love is hoping for better
love is holding on with dear life
love is wishing you didn't
love is sometimes so unpleasant

but love cannot be something other then it
and you cannot deny the love in your heart

so face love
and the answer will be in the air

hello
im me
and im not gonna change for you

im not gonna capitalize
im not gonna use punctuation

because i like this
its how i feel right now.

but i know you feel differently
and im not gonna fight you on that
its poetry
theres no rules

so just calm down
and do what you want
and if you want
you can follow me

Lights on your palm
Dancing across my face

Eyes meet and lips touch
But the fire still burns

Rain washes away the tears
Your smiles sweep away the sorrow

Transparent and transcendent
Our love shines between us

A thin thread that will never break
Words that glows in the air

I lived a thousand lifetimes with you
in that summer

Cruel voice
Whispering warm things into my thigh

I was high on your lullaby
Your sky your glorified sigh

Of relief,
Of disbelief,

Because you knew
When I broke countless curfews
And dyed my hair blue
And screamed I had nothing but you

We might just fall in love
Frozen in time

This summer, you and I.

Love me,
won't you?

you don't have better things to do, anyway.
we should meet on tuesday, and we should ****.

fine, make love.
but we're not making love, are we? we're drowning love.
we're drowning it with moans and curses and touches,
until love is just a faint reminiscence of our fantasies.

you always hated the way I talked.
like I knew everything and anything.
old man, you said. I talked like an old man tired of life.

well, old men aren't tired of life. They're tired of pain.
and that's sexist, **** you. old women can also be tired of life.

I feel old as the wind in my face
I feel it's creaks and groans and whispers
and the way they ask me to fall

it blew me out of you
and I grew tired of pain
and you never listened.

You should have listened.

Let's love,
shall we?
and see what fantasies we can ruin.

you always have a plan
but never follow up
so it's left to me
to clean up your mess
and eat your donuts

you have your music
and your poems

and I can't wonder
what they are about

who they are about
maybe me, if I'm lucky

but never me
you have too much taste for that

White over black
redact, delete, erase

Words
duly uninspired
down, drops my world

My hopes
in my closet
drawers slammed shut

I can't wear them no more
itchy, rough linen
it wasn't mine to begin with

so it goes
down, with my world

And now, I see
my drawers are white
and my hopes were black

We don't love us anymore
All our screaming fits are over
I watched you cry til you were sober
And that's exactly what we are
Sober and over

Everyone said it wasn't easy
But the truth is, the lies were very cozy
And your fake smiles made me feel less lonely
But the truth is bound to die
I'm just alone

Someday
All you'll be able to see is
her ponytail
And her clenched fists

Because she is willing to fight
And there is not a **** thing
they could do to stop her

And I will be
by her side

a breath on my tongue
flimsy and pathetic
strangled sounds from my lips

clearly un-done
my hands unwrap my face
from all your words
that tasted cool to the touch

but not enough greenery
jeering giggles and
fortifying glares

a word in my throat
jammed, slammed, shunned

be gone Angels
I can't do you anymore

Honey Iced tea
tastes blue, unlike the sky outside
I gulped it down
laid on the leather seat

People ****** at my hair
nothing but blobs of dark
on an endless silver screen
constricted in thin air

I wanted her to let go
but she couldn't,
her ideals and wishes
scrambling across her hands

splashing down my head
I was wet, and stuck
My mouth is still sweet
She could taste it

Quick, quick!
Bring the metaphoric shovel,
and your metaphysical hands!

The quintessential doubts
have already been prepared,

Now strike down your tool
shove it in through the ground
of my unholy essence

And bury all my questions
in the midst of every
justified true beliefs

So when I open my eyes,
all will be golden!

She is nervous
A flit of eyes
Wrangling hands

She searches for comfort
Music
Stranger's faces

But something is coming
She does not know what to do

Change
is a silent warning
that lights up her eyes

I am on fire
you see
my broken wings?
my husk of a soul?

Silent days and vibrant nights
I fell from the moon,
my fingers never quite
grasping faith

I followed them
their blooming words, lively hands
and poetry that betrayed
there was no use crying about it

As I touched down,
my edges fainting from the glow
and I laughed my laugh
"I am- I am finally here!"

But you come over one last time
And we dance like it's a crime
Then we run out of air and we die, we just die

And I crawl out of our coffin
And dance all over your grave
And the sun rises but it's too late, it's too late.

You love me
So you're afraid of me

But I don't know you
And I don't know love

So I'm going to hurt you
And blame it on your love

this fountain of boredom never drys
in my body you will find
a path that you can never reach
but you won't seek it

you'll abandon me.

my strings have all been cut
untethered, I drape myself over you
all your sharp edges sliding into my round skin

I write too many poems about you

so are you happy
at least one of us should be

Sometimes it hurts;
Letting Time pass

I want my lover to be someone I can trust
Someone who'll makes me smile and laugh out loud
Someone who'll never judge me
Someone who'll always be on my side
Someone even when we fight, sleeps next to my side

I want a lover like me

what am i now
am i someone you can live without

i wish i'm not
someone you can just forget about

i hope someday
you look back in the past
and remember me with a burning clarity
the way i stared into your eyes
like you were the one tethering me to this earth

but you let go
and i flew away
down the earth down the ocean

i am gone
and you let me be
and i hope you remember

They speak of families uprooted hearts broken and pizza deliveries canceled

She likes her coffee
Sweeter than hot chocolate
She likes her men rough
But in the end they're the ones on their knees
She likes her women smart
So they walk away first

She has so many numbers on her phone
But she hardly ever calls
She hates being alone
But she feels so alone in a crowd

3am, she's on her feet
Fist clenched eyes closed
She wonders if she should jump

Depression,
her name is

Uncertain
She feels
A little chilly on my tongue

A drop of rain
How do I know
If the storm is coming

Gray murky
A puddle of tears
How can I step over

Sky's blue
As always
What if I go blind

I fret
My feet are
Always
Cold