she wonders who she is
she looks in the mirror crying seeing those scars
from every single comment made
she watches as her makeup drains down her face
and her eyes swell from the tears
the tears that resemble all of her flaws
she sits there and says
why? Why cant I look like that?
her parents ask what she wants for dinner
but she refuses to eat in hopes she looks like
those models from the magazine
her friends tell her shes gorgeous
but yet she still looks in that mirror
and sees the girl she hates
the girl she never wanted to be
the girl she isn't
but yet she cant get past that because of society
we say its ok we understand
but yet if we did why do we still criticized people?
you say you see right through her but yet she is crying
and all you are doing is standing there watching.
her true beauty is shining through but nobody is looking
nobody see that she can be the happiest person
but with you sitting there pointing fingers
being a backstabber
bullying
causing all this pain and all she wants is to be happy
her true beauty is gorgeous she is the person people
want to be around
the girl that is goofy and smiles at everything
shes the person you can come to with any problem
shes the one you know you have a shoulder to cry on
but yet once again nobody realizes it
no one sees the pain
or the sadness in her eyes
all the see is a girl that strives for attention
a girl who wants to be thrown out there
someone who will spread her legs just to get  guy to like her
but she isn't that girl
her true beauty is a girl who will give you the
shirt off her back just to help you
the girl who will answer her phone at 4 in the morning to talk
if you have a problem
she wishes people would see past the lies
see past the rumors and realize who she really is
the only problem is that girl is starting to disappear
she is loosing faith  as much as shes loosing weight
as the tears hit her pillow she knows that girl she once was is
going down,
shes becoming someone she didn't want to be
the person she always hated
but she still see just a little bit
only a little bit
of her true beauty

where is the love?
the love shes been waiting for?
the love that will hold her when she cries
the one she can joke with
laugh with
act stupid with?
tell me where is he?
it seems he is nowhere
nowhere to be found
she wants that love
that love that understands he pain her last one caused
the struggle shes been through
she wants that love that when he says she beautiful she believes it
where is he?
where is that love?
as she waits and waits and looses hope
she starts realizing she doesn't understand where he is
she waits patiently in hopes he is going to show up
but shes only 17
shes rushing her life
she needs to realize that love will come one day
not right away but one day.