What am I going to do when you're gone
For two years you have been my sister
Your house was one of tribulation, drugs, and death
Your home was with us
PTSD clawed its way into your young and fragile mind
You witnessed tragedies a pure soul like you should never have to
Little girl you are leaving
and I cant say goodbye
1000 miles away
you will be
Who else will demand a hug from me every morning and every night
Who else will annoy me when I am trying to sleep
I Love You
You've got the sweetest smile I have ever seen.
You have blond hair like I did when I was 2.
You have the bluest eyes in the whole world, and I hope they stay that way.
I want you to know that you look more like I do than the rest
of your siblings.
Your mom told me once that you'll never
be as pretty as Kendal or Kaylie,
because you look more like dad and I.
You're so shy, and timid.
That's not a bad thing; it means you wont get into very much trouble.
For how much your mom calls you stupid,
you're actually pretty smart for a two year old.
You get your brains from me.
You'll always be beautiful to me.
Be proud of who you are, little sister.
I want you to know that I love you, and I will always love you
with all of my heart.
I don't know when I'll see you again.
Your mom and dad made it pretty clear that I am not a part of the Downey family anymore.
And if that remains true,
maybe someone will tell you that not one of your
sisters love you like I do.
I'm gonna miss you out here, Khloe.
I hope that when you're older you'll remember me and find me.
That you wont be mad that I missed out on so many
years of your life.
I hope that when you're ready, or if you even want to,
you'll come find me and then we'll talk.
But for now, I have to keep my distance from your family.
So I wont be seeing you at all.
And it's extremely painful and my heart breaks a little more everyday.
But I know that it's for the best for me and maybe even for you.
Who am I kidding? It's what's best for your mom,
but we wont tell her that.
I love you, little sister.
I hope to see you sooner rather than later.
Your oldest sister, Jordyn.
I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you when we were younger.
I never really believed them when they said,
"She looks up to you".
But you did,
And I didn't always play with you when you were begging outside my door,
Or always apologize to you when I yelled to loud.
But I felt your pain when you fell.
And I always stood up for you when the enemy was too strong.
I hid the scars up my sleeves,
Because I didn't want you to see how broken I had become.
I always put on a strong face,
While the red tears were falling.
Because I somehow always thought the darkness of the world would never touch you,
So I'll be there to fight it off when it does.
she cries hearing your name
she cries knowing your not there
she cries at night thinking about you
she cries when she sees your picture
she cries not knowing if your coming home
she cries when she smells your cologne
she cries reading your letters
she cries when she hears your getting deployed
she cries when she hears your going to be gone for a year
she is constantly crying
she is your little sister....