The love for a girl begins a new.
The sun breaks and the dawn strikes,
Shards of the sun Pierce the darkness
She is mine
The day is mine with her rays to blot out the dark recesses of my mind.
The heart bleeds to live, to love, to hurt and feel.
To embrace life undaunted with her smile lighting the way.  
Hands held close,
music of the wind sings the tune of death
Life goes on
The wrinkles of our love decay with time
Soon once more
She will light the fire in my heart
The day beings a new
          the love is passed on.

The feeling is fuzzy,
everywhere but the pit of my stomach.
It aches, more or less moans at me.
Yells so loud the guilt must be herd by my head and the heart nurtures such sympathy.

It rings in my head when it's quiet,
when I'm alone its louder,
like multiple gun shots to the tune of a symphony.
It's sleepless nights,
fighting back hunger
and worse of all
its lying to a loved one.

Like piranha, darkness eats away at the sky leaving pink and blood orange clouds in its wake.
Guilt eats away at me.
The sickness, the urge... every breath of lust
In my direction, I must have a taste.
Happiness is an illusion of the sick drivin, by what ales them.
Itching at their skin just for another taste. After the hit, the bump, the rush, clarity fills our mind. We start to make sense of why it's wrong why it ruins our lives... till the next time...

I did the unspeakable
I rushed to the lavatory
In desperate need to clean the sin off
Wash my filth over and over
"Come clean" I shrieked
Panicked, holding my head in my hands
Kneeling on the marbled floor
Only A towel drapped over me
Shivering not cold but frantic
I breath in. Stand up. Exhale.
I wipe the fogged mirror
Look into it with mournful eyes
I watch the figure stand before me
Not my reflection I see
Startled as it took shape
Regret formed into goose bumps.
Down my body as it traveled, multiplying.
I break as I see the picture in the mirror
I look up one last time
I marvel in disbelief...

She was my adventure
My peaceful car ride.
The music loudly flowing through the speakers
She was the sun in my eyes
The jolt of the steering wheel
The abrupt stop of the car
She was the tree that wouldn't move
She was everything in my passenger seat.
She is but a painful memory of moving on.

The shadow in my room creeped closer
Whispering don't be afraid.
It Let out it's hand closer to me
I quivered in fear of the unknown
Slowly the shadow sat down.
It's name is what startled me the most
It spoke so highly of me
With a gentle voice.
The ghostly presence seemed to soothe me
Everything about it looked scary
Till I let the shadow in
I felt warm like I had seen the light
It disappeared so quickly when others came,
I cried it's name over and over...
"Love, don't go. come back"...

Immortal
was his love for her
She was his Oasis
Without her his travels
It pure chaos
Everlasting hope and promise
The vows they made for each other
Death couldn't stand in the way
Even when it ceases to pulse
Love knows no bounds
When souls finally find each other
And beauty begins to decay
Love is immortal.

Today the chill of the wind
Spoke your name
I mourn.
The breeze gentle and swift
carried your scent.
I mourn.
Spring butterflies dance
to our song
I mourn.
The grief for your lost love
Is strong today, like a funeral,
Buried and forgotten.
I mourn.

Basic human kindness is a plague.
Only Society provides the Cure
It feeds off of graciousness
Effecting others in its wake
Every smile you take
Disrupting the work place
Human kindness is disease
Quick run and hide
As the internet bleeds
Soon as it starts
everyone is along for the ride
But who will be patient zero?

years ago,
man made words
To describe feelings,
To help while you feel lost,
While searching for the words that fit,
live a life.

I never said I was an easy man to love.
Most days I don't even like the skin I live in let alone love myself for it.
When I see you, you make the days bearable,
You make the face looking back in the mirror smile at all the flaws, the insecurities.
But you left...
You left me worse off than when you found me.
you were my home, not just four walls.
I had a full heart and a empty mind
Your touch was silk, hugs wrapped me like warm Linen, gentle and caring.
Now it's restless fighting with myself,
It's banging my hands on the table to stop from crying at 3am
Its Wondering what flaws did i have that you couldnt accept.
What did I do to push you away, what did my love do?
Was it too forthcoming with my anxiety? Was it waking up at 6am checking all the doors and windows to make sure you were safe?
Or..
Was it simply me loving you when you only liked the idea of not being alone...

You say you wanna man
But your not willing to open yourself up
You say you want love
But your not willing to love the flaws
You say you want romance
But your not willing to give
You say you want trust
But your not willing to bleed
You say these things
But no action has been deserving of a man

She is but a lonely spellCaster
love sewn in her Linens
to touch is to fall in love.
With luscious silk
draped down her smooth curved body,
her hair fell like gentle rain on her robe.
I can feel the poison
coursing through my body
love has its grip on me.
A knight, turned a feeble old man
Wise to loves touch,
Yet never learns his lession,
for the Sorceress gets what she wants.
As my persistence dies trying to fight
so does her enjoyment
Making me jump through hoops
to get her to notice me..
and I'm released from her vicious spell.
I'm  left with nothing but emptiness and shame
for my love still lingers
for the treacherous spellcaster...

Unto the breach dear friends
together we fight depression
May we ask ourselves
why they don't want us?
The real question is why
do they only want themselves?
Even the mirror struggles looking at such indifference
they're emotionless desire for Beauty
has left them blind and bitter
yet we still wish we were special enough
to feel Grace from their presence.

Finally after she left
The world turned it's back on me
Everything dead to me.
Like a puppy in the rain with no collar
No place to call home
Stranded
After she left
My bed grew in size
At first it wasn't a heavy burden
Time with out her seem to still pass
now after dragging it around
all these years
The weight of her absence felt like the world.

They didn't command pain with grand masses,  They simply came to take back
what wasn't mine to receive.
The four horsemen trotted into my chamber
Void
Despair
Punishment
And finally...
Death
Each leaving a part of themselves to make sure ill never love again.
Void, whatever I consume will never fill my emptiness without her.
Despair, wallowing in self lothing, itching at the skin without her touch.
Punishment, keeping me in a prison of isolation, slowly the pain of my loss tortures me and all I have left to do is beg for death.
And finally death... death leaves me stranded here, alone. Finally making me realize that I loved something more than I loved myself. Real death is dying everyday loving someone who doesn't love you back.

She is but a memory now.
I see her in all her beauty
But she's different

My love for a girl
Is lost with age
Not even lust
But more of an idea

She will never be
And I will never be
What once was
Never again

Yet I'll run right back
At her beck and call
A slave to the known

With love
Even when your losing
your still winning
Love doesn't quit
Man does
Love is endless
Till man gets greedy
Even in the darkest of times
If love is still a glimmer
You still have a way out
But if you turn your back on the light
You have lost your way forward.

You don't understand how unpredictably unstable I can be
I'm more than just a body, for hire
If I chose not to work im fired
I lay awake at at night waiting for a fright that might wanna take a bite
Of poor old lonely me,
tiny,
knee high to a tree,
whom can barely read
let alone feed a family creed.

I'm poor, I'm a joke.
That's why I can't stop taking the last ****
Before I stoke, these
Heavier drugs like coke
I'll bloat if I don't diet
It's pretty silent, it's quiet
Until the riot breaks out
And traps the sun
Ain't it fun?
We are all just believing we are number one
But isn't that the loneliest sum?
I feel lost
But at what cost?
The coin I had to toss
In a well
To get swell
For better or for worst
This love is a hell...

I have nothing to offer but my body and even then its on loan.

The divine heavens above or Mercurial Sepulchre below
will cash in on this investment soon enough.
Spoiled are my liver and lungs,
no good for harvesting.
The heart,
decaying tirelessly,
for its been unacompanyed for far too long.
Which lives the soul...
tamley caught in a custody dispute
on wherever this balladmonger belongs.

With one last attempt
He reached out to her
The words came out numb, as he spoke
Destiny hit like lighting bolts
Striking down with divine force

The world paused when they met
Colors were vibrant
Senses all in tune
She smelled of fresh rain in april
Had a luminous glow of sun shine.

She told him its too late
he was her hardest heartbreak
with a blur she was gone.
An end to an era...
The wind began to blow

Songs of sorrow hit the tops of trees
Colors ran together and faded
The dark side of love was clear
Light has escaped his soul

his body was an hour glass, and his broken heart infinitely fell like the sands of time.

Just then, i watched as the angel who perched on my right shoulder began to change. Gradually, the wise and all knowing expression faded from its face and horns began to appear.
It whispered in my ear and began to lead me into the darkness,
for the devil was right here all along.

Everywhere I turned
I saw her.
She became death.
Hunted me with visions
Hidden within bladed objects
The sweet release of steel on skin
Brought me that much closer with her.
Her voice begged me to pick up the bottle
It's the only way I could feel her pain
And numb my own.
Soon death with take me
I already feel the cold chills pour from my vains.
I'll be Hand and hand with my love again soon enough.

She must know how i feel when my time under the Kalamazoo sun has finally reached its purpose.
That when the end is in sight
the tears that fall are the last memories of my love for her.
With each drop comes happiness
cloaked in a blanket of melancholy
streaming down my face.
That when she looks up at the star lit sky searching for the awnsers in her life,
she sees my shooting star, finally making her wish come true.

This love never changes
         This love cannot be broken
                  This love is endless.

This wrinkle in time has given me lapse of judgment in this esoteric, illusion of love.
This glimpse of the unknown is tragic
Like a void shooting up ******
Filling it with anything It can to feel whole again.

The time left is only a fraction of the time spent chasing fancy cars and stardom.
With gravity beating down on my back
Crawling to break the shackles of my past...

I ain't ever gonna have that cash and June love
That love that no matter how much you endure,
at the end of days that woman says yes.
I ain't ever gonna die of a broken heart, because you gotta have one to break first.
Lost doesn't fit to the feeling I have,
It's more like disappeared.
Lost implys you will be found...
My love is at the bottom of a bottle
It's white residue left on a table
It's anything to numb my numb
To get my mind off you
To forget what life was when I had love
When everything else won't do..

As we part ways
branching into our own journeys,
I look back to see if you look back at me to..
When I stop and stare,
Waiting for any response,
I only see your head held high
never skipping a beat,
i feel foolish
for going on this long.
without the same care.
Without any desire for me.
I look forward
Memories rewinding in my head
Playing back the tape
To keep me company
On my journey ahead.

Soft jazz warms my cold heart as love begins to fill my vains.
Thick, bold, and beautiful love loosens these lips as i spill every notion, and flirtation she throws my way.
A pedal dance plays intertwining these two lost souls, it's been life times since they have gotten to dance.*
My eyes awake, i gasp for air for I have found life's calling. *Bathing in loves embrace soothes every wrong I ever did.

When my life goes amok your name drifts into my head. The what ifs rush to conclusions.
It's more than I miss you it's I'm lost without you.
Life has been going at my pace, but dull ever since you left.
I salvage a "relationship", it's more of a charity case at this point.
Trying to right a bit of the wrongs till karma catches up with me.
I see you with him and it brings joy into my life, it's true what they say, if you love them let them go... I just wish your freedom came from me.
It spend the next 50 years of my life making a time machine to right my wrongs but I know at the end of days... You will find him...

Although it was short lived,
the ride is what brings excitement to the journey. ~Life.~* -kyle shirley

It's a swift and rapid river.
The current is too strong to fight.
So you give up and let it pull you in.

At first it's terrifying,
Guiding you on a uncharted path.
But then this rush over comes you
Bliss, surpasses the fear of unknowing.

Through the twist and bows of the current
You embrace diversity till it happens.
The waterfall.

Do you fight this unnerving battle?
Escape before the plummet capsizes you?
Or close your eyes and ride out this heartbreak?

This elusive term is like
A bright red balloon at the park.  
You have to hold tight,
because if you loosen your grip just alittle... it's gone.

Happiness is a sail boat
Keeping a float
In a vicious sea
Carelessly free

*Basicly happiness is
in the eye of the storm of life.
In order to keep it,
you must change with it.