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I wake up
a shiver runs up my spine
because you are not there
to calm me back to sleep
to lull me back to dreams

I shiver because you are gone.
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
Saint Ozz
No. 116


I should have loved her
Instead I loved her friend
I will never forget when she walked away
Not out of my life just the room
The woman who loved me
Disgraced for the woman I sought
I should have wanted her
I should have held her close
She was immeasurably sweet and loving, intelligent and fun
Instead I went for her (our) friend who was nothing but attractive
I spent months without true feelings fueling a farce that
always ends badly.
Even after she broke up with her fiancé to date me we were
not to last as it is ever written
I ended up outside her apartment with tears sitting in her car
It ended and the three of us were altered.
I should have been smart but I sinned against right and mistook
friend for lover.
When lovers abscond, the friend never re-compensates the loss.
I miss the us all these many years later and
mourn the affection that I should have maintained.
The I massacred the triumph of kinship.
I miss them, the two girls.
One I should of loved and the one that I did
If only momentarily.

Fin.
True Story
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
alex kennedy
Your body is a language I would like to be fluent in.
I'm finding it strange,
My heart aches with pain,
For something that was never mine.
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
Liam
Au
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
Liam
Au
so elemental
precious beyond description
beauty sometimes hurts
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
Remy
Remember me whenever you’re blue
Remember me when there’s no one holding you
Any time you feel like you can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be with you


Remember me whenever you’re afraid
And when you lose your dreams along the way
Any time you feel like you can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be with you

  
Every night and every day I’ll be by your side
Just reach out and take my hand... I'll be your guide
And any time you feel like you can’t make it through  
Remember me and I will be with you


Remember me whenever you’re afraid
Remember me if there’s someone in my place
Any time you feel like you can’t make it through
Remember me and I will be with you

Remember me
When the color of the sunset fills the sky
Remember me
When you pray and tears of joy fall from your eyes.

Remember me as I was
Happy, alive holding no grudge
Remember me in a good life
Remember me as a good wife.

Because even when you can't make it through
I'll be there for you.

Just... Remember me.
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
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lost
 May 2014 Arnold Sin
s
You can find me in a room where the floor is carpeted with pine needles and the roof is the night sky
You can try to take me home but I won't know where that is
You will ask me where I came from and I will not reply
You will feel sorry for me and I will wonder why
I have been lost for so long I do not mind anymore
 Dec 2012 Arnold Sin
oh me oh my
They ask me if I still love you.

I blush, grin and say;

of course.

Why?

Because your eyes are of the most utter ocean blue,

but other days they're the currents of the stormy grey sea.

I see a current of salty water, deep, once blue, but now a faded grey.

I see a bundle of darkened grey clouds in the distance,

and the thunder rumbles from your irises,

and I hear it pound in the back of my mind.

I wonder if you knew.

I see a spark of lightening flash, only once in a while,

while you look at her.

My throat corrodes with bile.


She says she sees green demons lurking in the depth of my own ocean currents,

and I shrug.

What am I supposed to say?

I know you think about her.

Night and day.


The hardest part,

is a generic, old saying.

If you love them,

you let them go.

If they love you enough to stay,

or to come back,

you never let go.





But you haven't come back.
EDIT: Wow. Never expected this to blow up as big as it did. I thank you all so much!
EDIT: 2/15/14
i would say i never loved you, but that is a lie.
they say that your *first* love makes *you realize*, your first *love* wasnt really your first.
i pray for the day this happens.
*getting over you was the best thing i ever did.
and i did it for myself.*
so, one last:
*******.
you.***
EDIT: 9/14/14
i still hate you.
and you don't deserve her.
EDIT:   12/01/14
im sorry. you still arent
the same person
and neither is she.
but we all grow up.

EDIT
10/14/20
I was going through my bookmarks
on my old computer and found my old writings.
I just wanted to update this one last time to say things are better,
things are good. Thanks again for all the likes and comments.
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