when I was younger not in age but in my mind
I used to be afraid of what the people would say
the scars on my skin were the ugliest thing
the bruises on my arm and legs were disgusting

I was so scared of being rejected, not fitting in
people on the street would stare at me and look at me weird
some kids even called me names for walking around like this
and I never understood why they did that
like it was my choice to be this way

but all these little things made me grow as an individual
I am not that small girl anymore that you can hurt with words
words that don't mean a thing to me anymore
call me names, look at me weird

I will wear my battle scars proud
because this war isn't over and I haven't lost yet

sick of hiding who I am.

take me to a world where doors are open
a lovely little place where no one is bruised or broken
a destination where not a single soul feels alone or unwanted

wishing upon the stars was something I always did
it gave a feeling of safety because these dreams where mine
I wished for simple things like a hug or just to see you smile
I wished for a kiss and sometimes for a little more of that
but the most important thing I wished for was your company
because in my own little world you were all I cared about

today was the first day of spring
I could see the sun staying with us longer, shining bright
I asked myself the question when will I see you again
maybe this monday or maybe never, it kills me to not know
we got lost in time and space and there is no inbetween

water fell down from the sky
like the tears that fell down on the floor
everything started to go down and she knew
even her favorite band could not save her out of this
this girl who was so close to recovery got lost again
the darkness called her named, an empty hole of lonelines
the scars on her wrist were her sign of being alive

but in the end she didn't care about her broken things
everything always was and always will be about you
because this kid made her world more beautiful and worthy

and so she wished upon the stars ..
for one last time..

Hello, are you new here?
I'll be your friend
Add me on Facebook!
Let's make it trend!
We will be friends till the very end
One day turns to one week
A month to a year
I don't get it yesterday you were just here
Emotionally detaching the world no doubt
Time to rethink what we live learn and love about
I see you want to do something today
I think to myself I'll send a message your way
I see that you read
What ever I said
Is social media a place to keep thoughts out of your head?
Like preaching to the choir, with a little less flare
How can we act like we don't even care
Why do we like and why do we tweet
In my eyes it would be pretty sweet
If we all sat down at a table somewhere
No technology or even a care
One day our society will be back in route
but until then
Time to rethink what we live learn and love about

heaven kicked me out
I am cursed to be a lost soul on the planet earth
but that is okay as long as I can hear you breathing

I woke up this morning
and the first thing that came to my mind was you
I opend my brown reddish eyes thinking about your ocean blue ones

I wanted to hold you and tell you how much I love you,
that you make my heart skip a beat everytime you look at me
that I need you more than the universe needs his stars

the way you are, so different from all the others
when you smile I can see angels dance in the sky
you are the most beautiful human being I have ever met

but I cant let you close, you dont want to be near me
do you know that song about the demons, well its true
so I beg you please don't come close because it is dark inside
and yes inside of me is where my demons hide

so pretty please my darling do yourself a favor and go
leave me.. because you know I dont deserve you

she will forever be my everything even when we are nothing.

the look in his eyes told a different story
it was a sad story about his love for a girl
and how he wanted to give up everything for her

his hands weren't made to hold me
my heart didn't beat to love him
we always thought that we belonged
but the blood in our veins was from other planets

he was mars and she was venus
we weren't made to live happily ever after

but everytime they kissed the colors in the world
came back to life, it wasn't only black and white
and everytime they touched it was another kind of madness

it was a cold dark night
the full moon was shining bright, the stars were out
and everything in the world looked a little more magical
eyecontact and not speaking became our secret
the way your golden eyes looked into mine
you always looked right into my soul

if it's meant to be it will be her grandma used to say
and so they both died alone.

at a very young age I made a deal with lucifer
I was a little kid and the darkness surrounded me
demons telling me stories, the devil was close

my friends were scared and so was my family
I always told them it was okay
not to be like the other childeren

talking with things they couldn't see
seeing things they didn't want to hear

and after a while even my therapist called me special
I hate it when people use words like that
when they actually mean something else

I havent slept very fell since you left,
Delorian come back.