allie

allie May 2017

help

i just need something
to brighten my days
and make them seem
less bleak
so i don't drink bleach
and call it a day.

i just need a little something to make me happy.

#help #happy #suicidal #sad #depressed #bleach

allie May 2017

Untitled

i listen to your
loud music leaning over
the steaming stove

i'll cook you a meal
not wait for a thanks because
you never give one.

little things go by
and if i mess up you will
scream and shout. i'm numb.

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#numb #verbal #abuse #thanks #cooking

allie May 2017

-

{(+)}
we are all okay
until you come in
{(+)}

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#okay #you #came #in

allie May 2017

City of Stars

City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars
There's so much that I can't see
Who knows?
I felt it from the first embrace I shared with you

That now our dreams
They've finally come true

City of stars
Just one thing everybody wants
There in the bars
And through the smokescreen of the crowded restaurants
It's love
Yes, all we're looking for is love from someone else

A rush

A glance

A touch

A dance

A look in somebody's eyes
To light up the skies
To open the world and send it reeling
A voice that says, I'll be here
And you'll be alright

I don't care if I know
Just where I will go
'Cause all that I need is this crazy feeling
A rat-tat-tat on my heart

Think I want it to stay

City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars

You never shined so brightly

la la land's city of stars

#lalaland #city #of #stars

allie May 2017

out of season

my poems
with feeling
i guess
are no longer
considered
good.

what do you want
me to write
do you want things
that don't make sense
or things that
are off topic

the only thing
i can write
is feeling.

and those poems
seem to
be
out of season.

the poems says it all.
EDIT: of course, this treaded. of course it did. i'm in awe, here, people.

#out #of #season #poems #like #hate #love #feelings

allie May 2017

stuck

([<+>])
i'm stuck.
([<+>])

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#stuck #one #word

allie May 2017

caught in the fishing line.

the longest runs
are the things that **** us
we can train
we can raise our knowledge
but we can never prepare for the hurt
the anger
the tears
the scars.
when i say what's happening
people pity me
they try to 'help'
they look at me with sad eyes
and tell me to just solve it.
i can't, now can i.
it hurts.
i love.
i hate.
when you think you get out of it
it ropes you back in
if i cry
you don't care
if i yell
you don't care
if i leave
you hit me with words
you slap me with insults
tell me
i'm stupid
i'm an idiot
i'm worthless.
you pull me back in
into the fishing line
and i'm caught
caught on the hook
you trick me
say that you'll always love me
no matter what.
then you go along
and shed your hateful words like a snake
still,
i'm caught in the fishing line.
i'm stuck in the hook.
and there's no getting out.

i'll never escape.

#abuse #insult #caught #fishing #line #hook #hate #love #help #verbal