Ami Shae

Ami Shae Jun 2015

Always there are moments in time
whenever you wish you could rewind
take away those moments from fact,
from your memory--
relive them in the way
you'd wished them to be--
but reality sets in
and you have to realize
that no matter how many times
you tell yourself the lies,
you have to live the truth,
the stark reality
that is borne of now
and what is simply meant
to be.
But always there are those moments in time
when you ache to take away
what is meant to be
and turn it into something
that will not just help,
but set your life, your soul
completely free...

sometimes I just wish I could take away things and replace them with other moments, you know?

#life #time #away #soul #free #now #memory #fact #moments #take

Ami Shae May 2015

I Hate The Night

sensations of eery and genuine fright
woke me out of my uneasy slumber
this past night--
I sat up straight
and looked around
and emptiness and blackness
was all I found--
so went back into my dream
and then awoke again
to a violent scream
my eyes flew open wide in fright
and I realized then
I hate the night.

#dream #fear #hate #scream #night #fright #violent #blackness #eery

May 2015

ryn

The Greenhorn

These eyes have felt
their fair share of tears that burn
Forgive my eyes for they are yet so green
They have seen much but still they do not learn

These lungs have breathed
The air both fresh and acrid
Forgive them for they are yet so green
They only do what they must when all runs turbid

These ears they've heard
Hurtful promises and whispers that have stung
Forgive my ears for they are yet so green
They're know not to ignore the language of forked tongues

These lips have served
The most callous of opinions
Forgive them for they are yet so green
They can't seem to curb pent up notions

These hands have grown tired
From shielding my tear-stricken face
Forgive these hands for they are yet so green
They're still so afraid to welcome the gift of future days

These legs are sore
For they have travelled far
Forgive them for they are yet so green
They knew better than to enter through doors left slightly ajar

This mind is weary
From thinking of a life meant only for dreamers
Forgive my mind for it is yet so green
They know not of the inexistence of greener pastures

This heart... My heart
Pounding each beat that betrays
Beats with an anvil in tow
Forgive it for it is yet so green
It's having more trouble than it cares to show

This face I wear
A weathered mask I'm unready to shed
Forgive it for it is yet so green
There's still life in it...
For there's yet much to be said

#greenhorn #hellopoetry107

Ami Shae May 2015

Withdrawal

So painfully aware of being apart
from that which gives me my breath
helps to maintain the rhythmic beating
of my swollen heart--

So horribly bereft at having said goodbye
to one who has always kept me here
who has cradled me, held me tight
through every moment of my every sigh--

So hauntingly sure I will not survive
that life will have no meaning
with you not here to hold, to guard,
to keep me alive--

And so forlornly looking as you saunter away
your laugh, your jokes, your smiles and gentle heart
all that gave me reason to wake up
and live another god-forsaken day--

But so determined this time to carry on
to make it through without you here
to somehow hold myself together without you
and to just make it until the break of dawn...
©Amy Shae 2015

Sometimes it feels like it will never get better...
I hope it makes sense...

#love #broken #heart #depart #goodbye #survive #leaving #withdrawal