Out of sync with time falling backwards

Pieces of me fragment towards home.

Time effortlessly cascades over existence

Like water over small pebble stones,

On shallow banks of lost hope.

Shards of dignity escape me

Breaking apart my very essence.

I wait silently in sleepless grandeur

Re-living moments of memory

The sun in all its warmth and glory

Basks upon your perfection,

Yet it's nothing more than recollection

Jaded time worn frames of thought

Instinctively played by design.

I look to sepia polaroid's of dying hope

A realisation of futility

Sparks the world to collapse in on itself

My heart, a beautiful glass construct lies at centre,

Memories, emotion, time merge into one

Compressing all that remains into a single shining pearl

A light so intense it burns endlessly

In hopeless desire to find you again.

I try so hard
not to hear
your quiet tortured sobs
ripping through my head

I try to sleep
but I can still feel
the weight of all your tears
weighing down my pillow

I try to ignore
searing pain gnawing
my every tender limb
from the blades you took to yours

I try to close
my bloodshot eyes to block
images of your bloodied body
laying beneath once clear water

I try to move
but its as if Im frozen standing
watching you fade away countless
times, your heart never stopping

I try to reach
hoping to touch your weary face
wanting to wipe the misery
from your beautiful eyes

I try to show
you I exist but every time
I reach for you I break the mirror
and youre gone once again

-ARI