Every time I turn a page, I expect more
The words fill my brain with pleasure and satisfaction
I can see inside the characters
I can feel what they feel
It’s like an attachment
I don’t want to leave this place
I turn another page
My favorite character dies
It’s sad, but exciting
Then the book ends
And I reach for another
I do it to escape reality
Just for a moment

I loved sleep
a second away from reality
death for a moment
heaven for a minute
hell for a while
but when they came
the sleepless nights
they made me so powerless
even when stabbed
my eyes they were open
so just for a moment
let me sleep
so for a while, I can be with mother
hah
her warmth
I forget it on the sleepless nights

it's time to die
living just takes too much energy
and I've run out of it
so let's meet again in the afterlife

“i miss you”
i tell you so many times when you’re away,
i guess i just wish you were the one to say
that you miss me and you cant wait
to see me at the end of these work days

it hurts to not be missed
by the one you crave so deeply
but i try my best not to bother you
and let you live your life freely
i wish all my sweet words
would be returned
but i guess i dont deserve them

you dont miss me
because im clingy and annoying and
i get on your nerves
but i love you so deeply
and i just want to feel loved in return

bina

I think with a heavy heart
about the futile attempts
to persuade you to live