As the light of a crisp dawn
Floats through my window each morning
My first thought
Is if you survived another night.
If you're even alive
To see the prize
Of this glowing sunrise.

Because I can't imagine my life without
Your words
Rolling down cheeks in the form of
My tears
And your smell
Like ocean mist
Blowing in the breeze of what was once a naive girl
Letting the salt harden her
Until she can rust
The bitter world of metal
Which lays beyond.

Because hating the world won't be the same
unless I'm hating it with you.

Because I love the darkness in your soul in a way
I never thought that little girl could.

Because wondering about your safety
is my long-standing hobby.

Because I'm selfish.
I'm selfish and I need you
To continue living
So I can continue
Dying
To save you.

falling out of love with you
was like falling asleep.
first slowly and then all at once.

the word "love"
is such a relative term

you can love someone
while crying in
the bathtub
screaming sad lyrics
and cutting your
thighs with
a razor blade

you can love someone
while sitting in
the passenger seat of
their car
listening to them speak of
their favorite songs
and the movie they watched
last night

you can love someone
nearly as much as
you can miss someone
like at 7 a.m.
when your coffee is brewing
and your heart suddenly
drops
and memories replay in
your mind

don't define
love
as an emotion
because it is
so much more

Who are you to say that you know me better than everyone else?
Even my shadow is unaware of my doings when I enter the darkness.

There is still so much to see;
do not feel blinded.
There is still so much to do;
do not say you're bored.
There are still so many strangers to meet;
do not feel alone.
There are still so many choices to make;
do not feel trapped.
There is still so much to feel;
do not feel sad.

There are still so many places to go;
do not stop now.