My mind is infested.
Plagued by the echos of the past.
I want to be cleaned.
Wipe away all my thoughts.
...
I don't know why I have this feeling inside.
Why can't I forget what has been done?
Must I truly crave that feeling again?
The affection of someone who loves unconditionally?
...
I guess I just needed to vent.
Maybe that's just it.
Hopefully.
...

What do i say?
Im utterly speechless with her.
I eyes are locked but i don'tknow what i should do.
My heart races at the shear thoughtof telling her.
Tell her how i think she is amazing?
What about how i cannot sleep without thinking of her?
Should i dare to say what i truly feel?
I open my mouth but i cannot speak those words.
The words that would set me free and release me of this hold.
Oh how i urn to tell her those exact words that make me weak inside.
I really want to tell you your beautiful, smart and amazing.
Tell you everything you truly are, but most of all,
Tell you i love you more than words could ever describe

Beautiful bearings of broken bonds
Bound, bewildered and bitter.
Break backs of blind behemoths
Being better, beating backlash
Booming boldness, and bombs
Brains battle blighted beast
Bribery brews boiling blood
Building bastions buried by bombs
Brought by belief, but betrayal beckoned
Bastille bells burdened by beheadings
Behold beginnings birth bloom.

The moon is casting,
Light upon the floor.
Where I lay waiting,
Waiting,
For the knock upon the door.

For men in suits,
With ******* boots,
Who will take me away for sure.

Because the moon is casting,
Light upon the blood stained floor.
Where I lay beside him grinning,
Grinning,
Beside my husbands corpse.