There's a reason why there's present, future, and past
Tenses of verbs proves that nothing can last
It doesn't meant that when he said "I love you" but he left it's fake
It's possible that he really did but it eventually changed

"I love you"
"I loved you"
"I'll love you"

It's never the same

I've got a box of secrets,
That I've hidden away,
Safe and sound

Most are mine,
Some are yours,
As well as,
A few of others.

I trusted you,
With my box of secrets,
And you tipped it over.

All my secrets
Spilled right out
For all the world to see.

By the time I,
Had cleaned them all up,
You were long gone.

But I want you to know,
That if you spill my secrets again,
I will clean up mine
But leave yours lying in the dust.

If words were leaves
Rustling in the breeze
Whispering with ease
Thoughts and feelings
I will then say
There will never be enough leaves
On any tree
To express me
No words would be able to break free
To get to you from me.

I could destroy the whole and blow the ashes on your face while we look at the stars.
I could pick up every broken piece and throw it back to you to remind of us.
I could call the executioner and tell him to knock your guts out.
I could set fire to a forest but you'd sing as the leaves disappeared.
I could drown our love in River Styx and maybe it would come back stronger.
You make me whimper with pain
so now I join the broken pieces of the universe forming your name.

I was just guessing.
Kept on turning to the right.
But you're face and my make believe persona of you drove me to the left.
Like a drunk driver behind the wheel, I had no control.
Yet I let you still over come me.
So I found you.
I let you in.
Me, myself have lived on this hell bound planet for 22 years, and still couldn't find happiness.
Past "loves" made these fossil creatures look like peasants kissing the ground their holy queen walked on.
And I was the king.
In other words, you held that throne.
That happiness I was so thirsty for finally quenched me.
You were my absolute everything.
We moved quickly but not with a care.
Blinded though if you may, in a way.
Our family seemed unbreakable cause our contract said forever.
My first true love you were and are.
How *** was always nothing but lust, or what I thought was making love was false.
Till I stepped in you're great door.
Our eyes would lock and no one would ever find the lost key to unlock them.
It wasn't just ******* or sensation.
But making love.
The greatest vice and feeling I would ever encounter.
A year since our fairy tale ending and still I fail to experience that or anything greater, with any woman who has came my way.
From what you weren't aware of was what my previous relationship left me as.
Which was a hidden monster.
So all I knew was how to react off of emotion instead of logic.
Our different ways of life and guiding our own spawns couldn't compromise.
So we started falling apart, like a castle slowly losing it's structured bricks.
Never thought I truly live a real nightmare and knowing there was no waking up.
Reality.
The plane took me away from our departure and still I wait for a new arrival.
From what it looks like it will never happen.
All I am is set for failure and survival.
You know you were my favorite?
I wish I savored it.
Sometimes I wish I could get amnesia so it wouldn't even be memory.
But how can I?
When you was and still are my everything.

It was a hot summer night that I first thought about how you have lost me. And so here it goes.

You've lost me the first time you  tried finding happiness from someone else's touch.
Lost me the moment I saw those blueprints saved in your phone.

You've lost me the moment I first found out that you lied. You've lost me too, the second time around.

You've lost me the moment we fought and not give a **** about it just because you ran and leaped into a familiar embrace. You've lost me the moment you drew another artful deception.

You've lost me when I chose not leave you just because of the aforementioned reasons. You've lost me the moment I uncovered the truth.

You've lost me the moment i felt the warmth of your yesterday burning and causing pain in my chest.


You've lost me the moment you killed me. I can say that for a moment I was dead. Longing for that one kiss that could've kept me alive. The assurance of your never ending love. But then, I can't stay in that coffin for too long. For barely holding on to your seasoned presence. I can't stay dead anymore. And right there, the moment I first opened my eyes, I realized you've lost me.

I chose to walk on my broken hearted soul topped with the stems of love I was willing to bid. All because I thought I would be walking beside you.

But you took another road.

I thought I have lost you. But I realized it was you who have lost.