No more good nights

Something causes me to stay awake all night.
Although you may go to bed,
I'll stay up in a panic
Because of thoughts in my head.

If I close my eyes,
Terrifying things are what I dream.
I can't wake myself up,
Or at least that is what it may seem.

I sweat and I shake,
I cry and I scream.
Because death is what awaits me,
When I close my eyes and dream.

(K.J.M.)

A pile of letters,
all sealed with a kiss.
A boy in a bathroom,
slitting his wrists...
A girl in a closet,
a gun to her head...
A boy on a bridge,
one jump intill he's dead...
A girl in the bathtub,
holding her breath...
They all were happy children,
awaiting their death......

The water is clear,
But your wrists are stained
Your face says happy,
But your eyes say pain.

When I was little my parents told me
Bad things happen to good people
I never really understood that until
I was at your house
And I heard your dad hit you
Or when
My sister’s fiancé cancelled
The wedding
Because he saw his high school sweetheart
At Starbucks
Or when I heard my old best friend
Got hit by a car and died
Right after she left her volunteer job
At the shelter
But I finally understood
When I came home
And saw a note on the counter
Saying “I’m sorry”
And I saw drops of blood and tears
Heading towards the bathroom

I find that
I spill my heart out
To anyone who gives me
The slightest bit of attention
Silly me
Thinking they actually care

- K.B.