It’s all good
Until it’s not
My face falls
The world falls
Can’t hear
Can’t think
Can’t speak
Can’t breath
But you see it

Oh no.
Panic and embarrassment
But I don’t care about him
I care about me
I need to get out
I need to get out
I need to get out
Be safe
Be calm

MOVE
You need to MOVE
move your feet loser
Before you lose it
No no no
Don’t cry here
MOVE
RUN
oh. You have nowhere to go?
What a shame
I tried to help

Eyes

Those eyes
Those eyes
Those eyes
Your eyes

I know I say it all the time
But how could I not?
I’m just so glad I can look into them
I’m so glad they’re mine
Well, yours,
But just-
Ughhhh

Your eyes
Like stars in the sky
Diamonds in the night
Deep blue oceans
Defy me
There’s no gravity
When I look into those eyes
They haunt me
All I ever see

Your eyes
There when I close mine
On my mind
All the time
Never stops
But I don’t want it to

Time goes by
just a blink of an eye
Your eye
But don’t blink,
I might miss a second
A second of seeing them again

I miss
Even when I’m right there
I miss
Even when I can see them
I miss
The way the center,
A mysterious black void,
Where no time exists
I miss the way they widen
Infinitely
Growing as your heart beats faster
I miss the love in them as they meet mine
I miss the way they soften as you lean in for the kiss
I miss the stories they spill with just one look
One glance
One beautiful gaze
Beautiful eyes
Your beautiful eyes

How could I miss them
When they are matching mine
Meeting mine
Looking deep into mine?
Darling I don’t know
But maybe I don’t want to

Your eyes
Steel traps
Waiting
Sitting for the ****
Snap
Predator and prey
I’m trapped
No escape this time
Or ever
Never
Never lose sight of those eyes
Don’t let me go
I don’t want to leave them

Those gorgeous eyes

I love
The way you kiss me
When I’m in the middle of saying something
There’s not a day I won’t miss
Those interruptions

I can’t remember
What I was saying before
But it doesn’t matter
I would forget anyway

How is it
When you’re lost
Alone
Trembling
Scared
I can’t be there?
And why does it make me so angry?
So hurt
It touches me physically
Head throbbing
Stomach lurching
The bellyache of despondency and guilt.

Contact or combat?
You shouldn’t have to fight for your life or your rights
You need to be free
Come be here
Be with me
You’ll be safe I promise
Just lay in my arms and sleep
Peace

Peace when we’re alone
Nobody else in this whole world
Just me and your eyes
Those beautiful eyes
And your smile
Those lips
Those soft lips
And your hands holding mine
Head to head
Heart to heart
The beat like drums on fire
But a million butterfly wings just the same

How is it that for you I feel all the emotions
Infinitely
When I can’t even feel them for myself?
Day and day I spend as one empty canvas
Emotionless
Dead batteries
But suddenly
You talk and my brain lights up
Sparks an explosions of color
Say anything
Say everything

Your words paint me a blue sky
A lightning storm
A tsunami
A crackling fire
Leaves on the trees
Birds on the branches
Take that oak and build me a house of color
Take me in and never let me go

Because of you I know it all
Each emotion hits so brutal and raw
Burning
Or calming
The waves crash on the sand
Or the wind blows through my hair so swiftly as I breath in the taste of paradise

Don’t take this wrong
You don’t make me mad
You give me vital emotions of life
I could never be mad
Not at something that shows me the beautiful thoughts
Ugly, strangling, happy, sad, overwhelming, beautiful
Because these are the living emotions
And I lived without them for so long

There is a taste on your lips, so great, I’d die
There is an ocean in your eyes, so deep, I’d dive
Never go back to the shore
Float in those beautiful things forever
I need more

You look me in the eye
I feel shy
But I don’t back down
I just close them
Lean in
Until I feel your soft lips against mine

What a monumental moment
What a magical feeling
Why are there wars when there could be love?
Sparks fly
There’s no time
Please let this last forever

Softly music plays
When our lips touch
A melody
No.
A whole **** symphony

Your fear and pain brings me anger
A beast
I never knew I had it in me
I want scream
To kick a wall
Punch a hole through this mess
Rip open a void
A black hole through this sickening situation
So Time stops
This feeling stops
I want to make your hurt stop

How the hell could you hate being
In your own skin
When you’re so
So
Beautiful

What’s image anyway
When all I imagine
Is how gorgeous you are