To my future love,
I have been broken more than once & torn to shreds on my road to you..
Because of this, my heart has been forced to rebuild itself & learn to love anew..
And though I’ve seen the darkest nights I could ever imagine,
That they'd  lead me to your arms &  to a light I cannot fathom..
So to my future love, I vow to give u everything that I have,
jus promise me that if I slip up & make a mistake, u won't do like the others & begin to pack your bags....

I know you feel as if there is no point, you’ve ended up alone again. You should remember that what you felt was real. You felt something extraordinary for someone else. That proves that you are capable of feeling that again. Don’t deny yourself chances to meet new people, to try new things.. Stop allowing pain from your past to hold you back from being happy in the future! Move on to find new happiness after that sadness.
Don cry because it's over.. SMILE because it happened..

A Blank mind, wit cloudy vision
the satisfying crack of a mean collision
from an elbow swung, or punch thrown
and in my ears, a buzzing drone!
  I breathe deeply, and start 2 think
of how I was pushed, to the brink
I really do regret it now
I'd fix it but, I don't know how
  But it feels so good, at the time
but the mind doing it, isn't mine
It's not the nice sweet child
with polite voice, and manners mild
  But which am I and which is me?
Which one of those am I going to be?
The child, who's weak yet nice?
Or the monster, that nobody crosses twice?

I see now that I kept asking for your attention in some desperate validation that maybe one day you would see me the way I saw myself with you, as a partner, as team but later realized things wouldn't be as I dreamed..

It was easy to believe we were working when I thought I had something that had to be fixed, but then someone told me that I was never broken to begin with..

I waited and wasted so much time and energy working at your impossible process, but now I can no longer be romantically employed..

I love you, yes! But I do not love the way you seem to have me trained. I comply with your terms and regulations and never even complain...

I gotta admit you're so good at finding ways to keep me in line, but one thing I know is this contract you keep presenting to me, is something I never signed!

I got a question
I wanna ask my grandma, but shes been gone for some years now
I need the answers
I wanna ask my friends, but they're too cool to be honest
&  she's gonna take it the wrong way if I question her
It just might break her heart man
I can't ask my girl...
So ima ask Langston
& ima ask Maya
If I'm in love...
If I'm in love...
My Pen & paper won't lie if I'm in love..
So tell me tell me..
Am I in love?

Someday someones going to make you forget everything that hurt you in the past... Forget every race where you ended up last..
Someday someone's going to take you away from your thoughts, the ones that destroy your mind.
Someday, someone will make you feel like you're truly one of a kind.. Someday, someone's going to save me
Although I still wish that someone would be you, I know that you'll never have a clue...
You always knew that someday i'd be ok, that I would find that someone for my "someday" this you always knew was true...
You just failed to see that that someone was you...

You Meet someone, you two become friends, then you begin to grow close to each other.. & for awhile things are great, & then someone stops trying, you talk less, conversations grow awkward, and then there's that infamous drifting...Now No communication whatsoever, then memories begin to fade. Then that person that you KNOW soon becomes the person that you KNEW. That's how it always goes...Sad..isn't it...?