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It started as a whisper
Very faint
Almost inaudible
I thought I was maybe hearing things
Thought my mind was playing tricks on me
I manage to ignore it this time
But not for long..  
Gradually it gets louder
And louder
It's deafening
The self deprecating, hating, negative voice in my head
It's so ******* loud now
It's ******* deafening
It's like a banshee screaming at this point
I try to drown it out
With anything I can get my hands on
Alcohol
Drugs
Medication
Music
Sleep
Work
Nothing ******* works
I try to ignore it
But it's always there
Watching me
Waiting for me in the shadows
I'm a fighter
But I'll be honest, I don't have much fight left in me
I've grown tired
It's in my soul
In my bones
Like a shadow hanging over me
That just keeps growing
There is no light
Just sadness, anger, tiredness
It's evil
It's relentless
It's heavy
I feel it when I wake up
I see it in my dreams
There's no escape
Over the years it just gets worse
This is my ******* curse
Like a boulder that is slowly crushing me
I am losing this fight
Inevitably
Sooner or later
This will be deadly
 2d Ted
Damocles
She smells of lilac and lemon
A side note of lavender and honey
Immediately parched, parsed for words
I am hungry.

Her voice was breathy and melodious.
Like the songs of robins or sparrows,
Caught in a cacophony of words —
Bouncing along my ears, popping like ticklish bubbles.

I am lost in her,
Like a labyrinth,
With each turn I take I find myself
Finger trailing more curves,
Finding my grip along the creases of soft skin.

A simple smile,
Feels like I am ice facing the sun —
Melting in an instance
A puddle of wet, watery mess
Caught formless to her elegance.

Our lips meet,
Magnetic attraction,
Glued silken colored contrasts
Ruby red, and pale peach
Collide as tongues joust for dominance.

She tastes like
Cantaloupe mixed with salt and caramel,
Wild berries in yogurt,
Savory, sweet, fruit like
Intoxicating like margaritas or too many appletinis
I’m floating on weak knees,
Captivated and drunk from her radiant being.

And as the night passes,
And the dim lights shoot aflame,
I am there as her sensuality flows like an artery vein
And I dare to bite in, and drain her for a while,
Aloft lost in her like a wandering vagrant
She’ll take me home, and treat me like all the other strays.
Romance and nuance are what I'm all about these days.
I yearn for a chain of moments to be myself
By myself
Just me and no one else
Why then do I put those thoughts in a jar
With no air holes
On an out of reach shelf?
And expect it not to
Affect my mental health
Solitary has it's value
While family and popularity
Can be an overvalued wealth

©2025
 2d Ted
Nobody
i'm afraid that i'm going to turn into you
i don't want to hurt people like that
i know everyone is afraid to become their parents but i really don't want to ruin someones life
 2d Ted
Jay Jelly
Asunder
Birds of prey
Hard headed
Gravity
Incomplete story
In need of my
Sweet salvation
I can’t walk
On water
Wishful thinking
Out loud
Ringing the bell
Twelve rounds are up
Spiraling out
Of control
My crutch can’t withstand
The pressure
Like a stick of dynamite
Exploding daily
Fountain of youth
I’ll pass
I’d never wanna relive
All the unbearable moments here
I’ll never drink from the cup
Because I’ve seen more
Then enough of all this
So called life
For a thousand lifetimes in vain
Dead weight free falling
Into flames
Like a bomb
Falling from the sky
Catastrophic damage up next
Would you shield me from
Thee explosion
Before I fall  
To my demise  
Parachute open up your
Door to me eternally yours
I will be forever in your debt
 2d Ted
Luke85
I searched for your love
Down the wishing well
Every last coin
All I was worth
Tossed
Invested in hope
You went from a symphony of white noise
To plague of space in my heart
I was so thirsty for you
I guzzled you down
Tizzy and drunk on your silence
And for my thirst
It never did quench
Dry mouthed
And alone
I drowned in the idea of you x
Roses
My favourite flower since I was a child
Then I met you..
Now I can't stand to even look at them
Isn't that wild
Funny how that happens..
Some songs I don't dare listen to
I don't dare say your name
You're like ******* Voldemort
It fills my heart full of heartache and shame
Why do I always come back to you and play this ******* game?!
It's useless, it's rigged
I always lose
Left feeling broken, battered and bruised
Though you never laid a hand on me
Silly to think you saw me as more than flesh
How can you be so heartless ?
Who hurt you ?
I guess someone will probably ask the same question about me one day
I'll just shrug
I won't dare utter your name
Your name fills me with so much pain
Hurt people hurt people
Slipknot was right
People = ****
 2d Ted
Kalliope
Heavily debated deleting my account,
Even though it predates you,
It is forever tainted
with confessions of
love
for
you
Its 8 pm and I feel sick
I'm sick of feeling sick
I don't know why I'm this way 🙃
 2d Ted
Traveler
Herbicide rich farm lands..
Pesticides on every lawn..
Long live the American dream!
Capitalism is a long lost song..

Roundup sprayed ski slopes and golf course turfs!
Bucket list of old rich folks dying of cancers..
City water that stinks..
The ink of our receipts..
Testosterone levels,
rapidly deplete..
Year’s of no regulation,
Aluminum in the sky..
They obviously want to make sure…
No one gets out alive!!
Traveler Tim
 2d Ted
Kalliope
I cradle hurricanes in my ribcage
while words swirl around my head.
I try to catch the good ones-
but mostly, I wish I was dead.

I do everything too much-
the joy, the sorrow, the dread.
Yet somehow, I’m never enough-
what a curious truth to be force fed.

If I laugh, it’s always too loud;
my mouth too sharp to make anyone proud.
Crying is a dangerous game,
I could sob away a city, drown in the blame.

My rage leaves no survivors,
as if I line people up on personal pyres.
When I vent, they hear preaching-
a sermon no one wants, a fear of my leeching.

I don’t love, I dissect-
obsessively search for the trap I expect.
I can’t just leave; I burn it all down-
the bubbly, funny girl wears a permanent frown.

I do too much and my inner child feels seen,
She's acting out, we aren't this mean
I just get scared when the vibe is off, and ruining the mood makes the blow more soft.

Despite the chaos I still crave love, an equal partner, wearing fireproof gloves.
If I weather your storms, could you handle mine?
Storm chasers have never been easy to find.
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