I´ve had my fair share
of not wanting to exist
The sole purpose of my life
was to  eventually die out
on my own way.
Even though I´ve wished upon
death more times then I
congratulated my organs
for granting me one more day
of misery.
I will not be shame myself
for dreaming about death.
I  just wish I had woken up sooner.

I  rise  despite sickness,
The invisible parasite
that  clings on me
Has found his way out of my bed
The  darkness of my secrets.
will be destroyed in his eyes

A source of great misery, clouded with the illusion
of a better future.
But the idea of finding myself   in peace,
in complete happiness one day.
Is what carries me all the way
to the comfort. I strive for.
I overload, unload
of stress every day.
I distress,
in each organism
I can find.
There is beauty
in all that I see.
I am here,
alive and well
Please
don´t
drown me
I want to
Live.

I never knew i could disintegrate so easily
not once but twice reduce in shallow
fragments , I decompse of you
Only to find myself in decay
The chemistry of a broken heart
slowly transforming itself
into poison is interacting
with you
on a level of hurt
I´m simply trying to infect you

I´ve been staring at the way your eyes
flicker everytime we pass
a bed
I  guess  I couldent bare
the thought of you naked
fine and all  without me
But behold my secrets
moved on  without me saying goodbye
You drank everything  that was on my lips
a sweet  suffocating feeling
a crowded mind  burned alone
I  tried  to hold on
rejecting your calls
at  the same time I  saw my life
circle around me

Beauty  are of several kinds and features
Some Women  carries natural beauty in heart & soul,
Inner Beauty which build's our mind and soul healthy,
Outer Beauty which creates magic on several human kind,
Only Beauty is worthless ,
But Beauty with Brains rules the Universe;
Beauty depends on faith and trust;
Without faith beauty is worthless;
Without trust beauty is worthless;
Beautiful Relationship needs both faith and trust to make  married life prosperous.
Beauty should not be destroyed by cunning thoughts and ideas,
Beauty should not be destroyed by Love Betrayal & Adultery;
Beauty should not be remain lonely and separately  from youth,
Beauty  should not be  used in ******* and red,blue  street's;
Beauty should not be jealously and proud of it's own  beauty.

A  true realization
maybe an imagination
ore a speculation?
Perhaps even just an experince
but the samples are as thick as your tissue
the  memories  flowly as the tears
we  all  let  escape from our body
from time to time
Fake  friends  the hollow
people that  desire you
but at the same time envy and despise you
Making it look like you´re paranoid
when you  like a crow  spread your wings
around them
Reminding them at any moment
you to  can cut  them as deep
as they  wish to  bleed you out