they say hearts see ten times past vision
I’ve always felt sheltered by my glasses
troubled at letting go of things in front of me
managing to carry boulders when I weigh feathers

longing for the answer of not breaking at the stem
pleading to split down the middle
always dealt the smaller end

I will forever be a third of myself
if I count every step I took backwards

cars passing by as lines of light
and I know my direction is north
the hands around my waist
seem to spin me around clockwise
life having its middles
and I am reminded of my favorite novel’s end

I walked towards him like a withered rose
how am I looking in the mirror and blooming

Please God
Don't make me prove I can live without her
I'm tired of plot twists
Of separation and reconvening

I couldn't make sense
Out of losing her
This love is immune to lies

I don't ask myself where life will take me
Anymore

I just want to know if she'll be there.

The poet lives two lives.
One on the outside,
And one in their mind.

When you look in their eyes
You could see an abyss.

If you looked long enough
You could sink into it.

But most people don’t see it.

Take the time to read the words, though,
And you would know for sure.

The poet lives in two different worlds.

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.

the sunset is bleeding into the room
all the secrets from within
will make themselves known
when the winter breeze comes
and takes you away

i am like a gray cloud
not pretty in this sky.
i disappoint and displeasure
all the passerby.
this depression
is not a "this" thing
it just
is.

its me.

loving is like sleeping with a razor blade
it will cut you up in your sleep
and you’re a fool for thinking it wouldn’t

I wish to die
I wish my years get added to yours
& in this way, we remain attached, forever.