I have a secret
                    It tears me apart
                  each and everyday
           waking its way to my heart

                      I have a secret
           something I cannot destroy
                you can't mess around
          cause this secret is not a toy

                      I have a secret  
           It keeps me awake at night
             sometimes I cannot sleep
                  became of all fright

                     I have a secret
             that's killing me inside
               keeping the real me
               locked away to hide

                    I have a secret
             that's making me die
              I'm not getting tired
       but it's hard to say goodbye

                    I have a secret
               I'm not getting well
              and the worst part is
                   I have a secret
                 that I cannot tell

those three words
hurt me
more than losing you
ever did

and you never even
said them to me

walking down the streets at 3 am
with my girls
complaining about how cold our legs are
but we actually know very well
that this is what we live for
screaming, laughing
as if we were alone on this planet
neither afraid of the dark
nor thinking about tomorrow
because at this moment we are free
just us and the streets
we don't sleep at night

I lie here,

Covered in shame,
All I can think about is my mistakes,
Nothing I've done makes
This life worth living...

Someone listen to my cries or
Let me die.
Each breath is
Excruciating...
Please, let me sleep forever

I was loved
When I was young and free

I was loved
When my hair caught the breeze

I was loved
When the willows would sing for me

Then
        
            it

                    stopped.

I am not loved
Because I love myself

I am not loved
Because their hair doesn't catch the breeze

I am not loved
Because the willows only sing for me.

I am hated for
my differences.