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Jul 2020 · 33
Queen-Midas Jul 2020
appreciation post for my beloved and dearest father, who let me light scented candles whenever I felt like it.

my precious papa who loved dark chocolate only because his daughter loved it.

my darling daddy, whose quiet love I feel more deeply with every passing day.
Aug 2017 · 915
Queen-Midas Aug 2017
One day, you and I,
We're going to learn to smile again.
One day, you and I,
We're going to learn to love again.
One day, you and I,
We're going to find a reason to live again.
Does that one day come for everyone?
Aug 2017 · 359
Queen-Midas Aug 2017
After he left, the sun never returned.
Half my world lit, half in a shadow.
Aug 2017 · 525
Down, down, down
Queen-Midas Aug 2017
If the world keeps pulling me down,
Then should I just let myself drown?
Writing after a long time. Life hasn't gotten any better
Feb 2017 · 569
Big Bad World
Queen-Midas Feb 2017
I watched the ghosts of people walk around me,
Pieces of what they used to be,
Memories scattered around,
Hearts broken and stamped on in the crowd of the world.
I watched them slip away into the emptiness,
One by one as they turned,
And walked away, not once looking back,
As they faded into the twilight world of illusions.
I heard the echoes that day,
Of sounds that no longer existed,
Of love so rare that it seemed forbidden,
I looked up at the haunting night sky,
Street lights illuminating in the dark,
As a deathly hush fell over the entire city,
I drowned in the labyrinth of memories once again,
Surrounded by a mist of,
Shadows aching to be real once more.
Nov 2016 · 787
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
In the end it was the tortured silence that led me to the asylum.
Demons were winning,
I had no power to fight,
They thought I was crazy,
“Send her to an asylum now.”
They’d all turn away as I walked down the hall,
And as soon as I left the whispers would start.
They’d look at my wrists no matter how swiftly I pulled down my sleeves,
And whenever anybody looked at me their eyes held accusations
Rumors, Jokes, Gossips,
Became the daily routine of stabs in my heart,
Sleeves grew longer, hair grew shorter,
Lies became the constant thing, and the truth faded away,
Leaving the constant hum of static.
Heart was broken, nobody cared,
My sobs grew softer as I buried my voice.
I was choking on my words,
And writing them down was the only option left,
One option, no choice.
The gossips grew louder,
It finally wore me down,
They said I felt guilty because I broke his heart,
But, they were all wrong,
He had broken my heart, so I had broken my soul,
The word ‘broken’ became overused.
My laugh became more hopeless than my sobs,
Knife in my hand, positioned at my chest,
My aching heart wasn’t hard to find,
Silence became louder, heart was bruised,
Crushed into pieces no superglue could fix,
Tell me, who’ll be kind enough to **** me now?
School *****. High school especially *****.
I’ve got a feeling tht this year time ain’t gonna do much healing.
Nov 2016 · 402
Scrawled Art, Bruised Heart
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
One last cut,
For all the times I thought that
the girl behind the scrawled art, bruised heart and
the boy with the sad eyes, beautiful lies could have a
happy ending.
Nov 2016 · 1.6k
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
Ink, ink, ink,
It was the same ink which wrote those notes, we passed in class,
I’d read them, my hair a curtain round my face,
Hiding the feelings my face would betray.
Ink, ink, ink,
It was the same ink which wrote those love letters stashed carefully under a comer  of my bed.
You’d read them, a light smile playing on your lips, in your eyes I’d see my words and
I’d fall in love with you all over again.
Ink, ink, ink,
It was the same ink that wrote those poems in my notebook,
The ones you’d pretend you couldn’t see.
I’d read them again and again,
And each time I’d find a sadder meaning behind each line.
And you have to believe me I’d never do all of this just for attention.
Ink, ink, ink,
It was the same ink that wrote those dreadful, melancholy lines you’d hear people talking about in the hallways.
I’d sit in a corner of the washroom sobbing till I couldn’t breathe,
Then wash my face, erasing all the evidence off my face that my eyes couldn’t hide.
They’d look at me and ignore my pain, cuz u know people they’d rather believe the lies than hear the truth.
Ink, ink, ink,
And finally it was the same ink that wrote that suicide note I kept on the rack. I read it one last time before finally walking away, slipping and drowning into the water.
But this time I didn’t try to fight back.
up to six poems a day.
Nov 2016 · 256
One choice
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
I cried, I smiled,
I screamed, I tried,
My final choice,
Cut a little deeper or
Ingest a whole bottle.
A bullet through my skull or a
Rope around my neck.
So many options
*But, I only got one choice.
got one choice. only one
Nov 2016 · 232
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
I’m still waiting for you,
I’m still waiting
for you to tell me
this isn’t
t  r  u  e.
short but yeah
Nov 2016 · 738
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
She drew you a world mapped out in her heart,
She drew you a world with endless art,
She drew you a world as infinite as the sea,
*I guess that’s the reason you chose her over me.
never good enough
Nov 2016 · 258
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
My parents always said I needed protection,
Protection from what I never understood,
So I went on doing whatever I wanted,
But, now I know what I needed protection from,
Yeah, I guess my parents were always right,
You can’t trust anybody in this backstabbing world,
I learned my lesson after I met you,
**But, baby this is one lesson too hard to accept true.
Nov 2016 · 216
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
They say that we’re all candles,
Burning in the silver darkness of the world,
But, then if I’m a candle too,
Then there must be something wrong with me,
Because instead of burning,
*I’m fading out.
Nov 2016 · 863
Queen-Midas Nov 2016
I counted the moments as I fell,
And I was Alice, tumbling and falling
First faster, then slower,
But never, hitting the ground.
I kept on falling.
I thought of you as I fell,
Your dark lashes fanned out against your cheek,
The steady rhythm of your heart
The feel of your hand on my waist and your lips on my neck,
Your heavy breaths,
Your dark hair failing gracefully over your eyes,
The taste of you: salt, heat, want and lust,
I kept on falling.
I thought of you as I fell,
The empty static the only thing left,
Broken heartbeats and tired eyes,
Your ghost that roamed my house,
Haunting me, taunting me,
The voices growing louder and louder,
The silence unbreakable,
The static kept on streatching,
Cigarette ashes and empty tequila bottles,
The nights cold and unbearable,
I kept on falling.
I thought of you as I fell,
****** wrists and a fake smile plastered on my face,
My heart cold and frozen,
All the warmth evaporating,
An oxygen mask forcing me to breathe,
An ocean of pills, an unsplept bed,
Monsters from under the bed escaping to my head,
Hallucinations and nightmares,
Became the same thing,
I kept on falling.
I counted the moments as I fell,
And I was Icarus, drowning and falling because I had flown too close to the sun,
*I kept on falling.
Falling. Falling. Falling. Still have a long way to fall.
Oct 2016 · 169
Something I Learned Today.
Queen-Midas Oct 2016
Sometimes you have to Be broken to find the real you.
Oct 2016 · 294
Queen-Midas Oct 2016
Dear Z.K.
Stay. Please just stay. I’m not gonna ask you to stay with me forever. Forget all that. Stay with me or tonight. Please. Hold me close and I know I know that when I’m in your arms I’ll be all right. I won’t ask you to tell me that you love me. I don’t think I’ll have to explain anything. Just kiss me once. I know you don’t love me. But, for one night I want to feel like you do. Tell me I was important to you, even if it was just for a moment. Tell me I changed you somehow, even if it was just a little bit. Tell me I left my mark, even if it faded away. I know that after tonight we will never see each other, but tell me that we will see each other again, that we will meet again somehow. Tell me something. Anything. Anything to keep me alive. Stay with me tonight. And lie to me. Console me with lies because I’ll be clinging on to those lies for the rest of my life. Please help me breathe. Please don’t go away. Please stay
Yours always,
I don’t know what to do. You’re leaving and I’ll never see you again after today. I want to say all of this to you. Message you. Call you. But, instead I’m writing all of this here because then somehow it’s gonna feel like I said this to you. Tomorrow night when you board your flight, you’re going to take your luggage, half of my mind, half of my soul, and all of my heart with you. I’m gonna be counting stars for the rest of my life trying to find a way to sleep. I’m gonna be in the hospital, trying to find a way to breathe. Desperate. That word defines me right now. Help me. What should I do?
Oct 2016 · 201
Queen-Midas Oct 2016
I took out my pen and paper today,
Hoping I could finish that suicide note so I could finally walk away,
Dear mom and dad I wrote at the top of the page,
I’m sorry, forgive me, but I can’t live in this cage,
I don’t think there’s any more sanity left in me,
I’m sorry forgive me, I just want to be free,
Dear mom and dad, you were always the best,
I’m sorry forgive me, I just want to rest,
I folded that paper and kept it aside,
I took another one and started to write,
Dear beloved, you were the only one I ever desired,
But, you broke my heart left me drained and tired,
There are some sorrows which the heart forgets not,
There are some wounds which time heals not,
I took shelter in the depths of my heart, that’s where I hid,
I want you to lose your heart and then your mind like I did,
I always did and still love you alot,
But you never decided to give me a second thought,
I took both the papers, kept it on my rack,
I looked back once, knowing I’d never come back,
I could hear my heart pounding as I walked down the hall,
I’ve accepted my fate; I was always meant to fall,
I jumped from a building, a smile on my face,
As soon as I hit the ground I’d ended the race,
I knew what I did, call it a mistake,
*But, this pen and paper had become my escape.
Oct 2016 · 228
Queen-Midas Oct 2016
Do you write poetry about me, like I write about you?*
Do you know what happened, cuz I don’t have a clue.
Simple questions that haunt my mind,
Now it’s just playing forward, no more rewind,
A dozen of poems and a library full of stories just for you,
I’m feeling numb, my heart beaten black and blue,
I stand here waiting for you.
Do you write poetry about me like I write about you?
Is this the part where we say adieu?
Sep 2016 · 221
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
I was thinking at night one day,
If there were other words far away.
Do you think there would be one for you and me?
Would there be one where we’d both be free?
Perhaps, there are other worlds far away.
Maybe, we’ll visit them one day.
Until then I’ll keep rewinding the memories of us walking hand in hand.
Until then I’ll keep listening for the echoes of our laughter from that distant land.
Sep 2016 · 236
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
He wove words out of his mouth so beautiful, that even the most well-written story seemed dull compared to his words.
His eyes the shone so bright a blue, that after looking at him once I knew that the sky would always look colorless to me.
He had spoken with a voice, a voice more beautiful that desire. There had never been a sound more lovelier than his voice.
He had touched me with a touch so full of want, that as soon as he let me go, I knew that he had left his mark on my heart.
He had created for, me a world, drawn with the strokes of his love, and filled with unsaid words and unspoken promises, a world so delicate and fragile that a single breath could have knocked it down.

He had painted for me dreams so vivid that I wanted to be trapped in his world and never wake up again.

Then, he had pushed me so far that our past had become a reminder of I had desperately searched for but could not find. So, our love had retreated to a distance where memories became painful and silent.
Sep 2016 · 552
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
The shadows under your eyes spoke of moonlit sleepless lights,
The scars on your wrists spoke of lost battles and fights,
The pills in your shelves spoke of desperate relief,
The blades under your bed spoke of endless gries,
You broken-hearted smile spoke of silent pain,
And the tale of a broken soul, never to be mended again.
Sep 2016 · 194
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
A fallen angel,
A master of disguise,
A pretty mouth to spread beautiful lies.
A fallen angel,
An act well played out,
Because angels have beauty we know nothing about.
Sep 2016 · 219
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
A story of a king, a queen, and a kingdom of dust,*
A story of dreams, desires and lust,
A castle surrounded by ivory towers,
An enchanted kingdom of ancient powers,
That's were we fell in love a life time ago,
In a place where at midnight the sky seemed to glow,
In a battle of anger, loss, and pain,
You bid me farewell, didn’t bother to explain,
So our story remained preserved between tattered old pages,
And my love confined in distant old cages.
Hope- It's a treacherous thing.
Sep 2016 · 590
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
I’ll sleep away all the grief,
Hoping one day I’ll find relief.
I’ll wait till the sky turns golden,
Hoping someone will come help me with this burden.
So wake me up when it’s over,
Till then I’ll lay down in a bed of clover.
At night when the lights will go down,
There will come a moment when I’m lost but found.
There will come one day,
When there will be no regret, no more nightmares and waking up covered in sweat.
There will come one day,
When I’ll finally fall asleep, somewhere far away in a slumber dark and deep.
Sep 2016 · 459
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
Perhaps you would be happy in those endless dreams,
To drug your way out of this pain,
To drift silently into and enchanted sleep from which you would never have to wake up again,
But I ask you this. I ask you this out of pure selfishness,
Come back to me. Come back for me,
And when you do you, you will find me waiting here
And I shall love you the same.
I will love you with every broken heartbeat.
I am so desperate.
Sep 2016 · 382
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
Your voice was like a
- s   i   r   e   n   -
that lured me to the depths of your
*-c  h a s m i c    h e a rt -
Sep 2016 · 158
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
There was emptiness inside me that even the biggest of the vessels couldn’t fill,
And a silence that couldn’t be broken no matter how loud I screamed.
*I was imprisoned by the walls of pain I had somehow built myself.
Confined. Trapped. Caged.
How many more adjectives do I have to use?
Sep 2016 · 596
-A Well Woven Tale-
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
You told me you were sick, suffering from a dreadful heartache,
I couldn’t see the face under your mask, so terrible, so fake,
I believed your beautiful lies, and trusted your bright, hypnotic eyes,
*But, you left me trapped in a well woven tale.
Beautiful lies make beautiful stories.
Sep 2016 · 202
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
What was it about your voice that had made me fall for you?
Maybe, it was the way you spoke, your bittersweet voice so soft almost unable to be heard.
Or maybe, it was your words, so mournful and full of regret that I knew at once that they must have been uttered from a broken heart.
Maybe, it was the sound of you voice, how your tone had always spoken of heartbreak and misery.
Or maybe, it was how when you spoke all I could do was to listen in spellbounding silence.
What was it about your voice that had made me fall for you?
Love- It makes us write such beautiful and terrible things.
Sep 2016 · 805
To Z.K.
Queen-Midas Sep 2016
You had made everything forbidden for me.
The way I couldn’t witness anybody smiling without recalling your ghostly smile.
The way I couldn’t touch anybody without remembering your soft caresses.
The way I couldn’t love anybody without thinking back to when I had believed that I had loved one who had deserved such a love as mine. How, you had been so silent, as though you had never yet to love or be loved.
You had made everything so forbidden for me.
To Z.K., with all the sadness of my oppressed heart.
I will always love you and your forbidden love.
Aug 2016 · 168
Queen-Midas Aug 2016
All roads lead back to you
Aug 2016 · 268
Queen-Midas Aug 2016
I remember that I lay in your arms as we watched the meteoric sky,
I saw a shooting star
I closed my eyes and made a wish,
I wished that you would stay,
But you didn’t,
So I drank to forget your name.
I remember that night I lay alone in my yard and watched the dazzling sky,
I saw a shooting star,
I shut my eyes and made a wish,
I wished that you would come back,
But you didn’t
So this time I drank to forget my name.
Aug 2016 · 186
The Wishing Tree
Queen-Midas Aug 2016
Long ago,

In a far away place.

A girl disappeared

Without a trace.

She had stumbled upon

a wishing tree

I should know

that girl was me

I made a wish

to forever roam

little did I know

I would never go home

Living forever

may seem like a dream

to do whatever you wish

under stars that gleam

But be warned

if you ever stumble upon a wishing tree

every wish has a price

nothing is free
guys this isn't mine. its a friend's poetry
Jun 2016 · 179
move on
Queen-Midas Jun 2016
they told her to move on
she couldn't move on in life
so she moved on from life
Jun 2016 · 339
Queen-Midas Jun 2016
you left leaving only the haunting shadows of your starstruck eyes
May 2016 · 289
Queen-Midas May 2016
You were the stars to all my darkest nights
May 2016 · 202
Queen-Midas May 2016
Darkness crept up from behind me, laying one cold hand on my shoulder,
Its breath was like ice down my neck, and its touch was searing,
I looked in the mirror and expected to see a demon from the blackest of hells,
But instead I saw myself hovering right behind me
May 2016 · 233
Queen-Midas May 2016
Don't fall in love baby, you don't have the power to fight anymore.
May 2016 · 163
Queen-Midas May 2016
Please let me go. Let me escape. Please.
Queen-Midas May 2016
You said there were people out there who cared*
Where were they when I spent the nights standing alone
Where were they when I cried so hard I couldn’t breathe
Where were they when I turned around and found only cold sheets and empty beds
Where were they when the floor was covered with crimson red flowing down my wrist
*And, You said there were people out there who cared
May 2016 · 226
Queen-Midas May 2016
Doomed are those who fall in love because they fight a war everyday. Those who come victorious revel in it's glory while those who lose keep on fighting until they become victorious.
May 2016 · 153
Queen-Midas May 2016
There came a point where I could not see even the brightest of the lights in this dark world
May 2016 · 162
Queen-Midas May 2016
Baby, you didn't just light a fire you also cast a shadow
May 2016 · 1.5k
-Distant and cold
Queen-Midas May 2016
He was so distant and cold that even the light could not catch his eye.
Today was just a bad day
May 2016 · 1.2k
Inhale, Exhale
Queen-Midas May 2016
Inhale, Exhale*
Watch the smoke dancing in the light
Inhale, Exhale
Grab the light before it vanishes into the night
Inhale, Exhale
Drowning deep in the ocean blue
Inhale, Exhale
I'm burning too
Inhale, Exhale
Battle scars linger forever on broken hearts
Inhale, Exhale
Wipe your wet eyes
Inhale, Exhale
Let the curtains go up
Inhale, Exhale
The show has just begun
One scar faded away another is just about to show.
Queen-Midas May 2016
Today I didn't make a decision I gave up. I didn't decide to move one I just gave up trying to convince you that I couldn't move on. I looked at myself in the mirror and the only thing my eyes were saying was
*" I'm watching somebody give up"
May 2016 · 218
Queen-Midas May 2016
You asked me why there were no mirrors in my house
“Because not everyone sees beauty in them. They don’t always show beauty”

Sometimes it shows us the monsters we are.
May 2016 · 684
-'Just Friends'
Queen-Midas May 2016
You said we could be 'just friends'
Look into my eyes and tell whether the way I look at you is the way friends look at each other or not
May 2016 · 313
Queen-Midas May 2016
I didn't smile at everyone, I didn't talk to everyone but I did to you and maybe I thought that you would realize that I chose You over the world.
May 2016 · 552
Queen-Midas May 2016
I fell for you baby, But I should've known better
because everything that falls ends up*
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