I stopped dressing in black because you had bought the color back into my life. You said that I was the spark of hope in your life. Then you left. I waited. And waited for you to come back. But you didn't. So, I lost myself and kept my heart in the lost and found box. I turned towards the sun letting the shadows fall behind me. All the shadows. Including me.

its yur birthday
happy birthday
i miss u alot
i'm srry

Fighting the same old battle everyday
Gonna end this all today
Let me drown in the rain today
I don't wanna live everyday like its doomsday

You watched me turn to long sweatshirts and away from all the sleeveless cropped shirts
You watched my eyes turn into black tunnels as all the light faded away from them
You watched me turn to alcohol and cigarettes knowing how fast they could **** me
You watched me drown knowing that I didn’t know how to swim in all that water
You watched me fall hard and harder each time but never stopped to help
You watched me sink as the sun sank below its horizon everyday
You watched me cry everyday as another part of me died
You watched me turn from the light towards the dark
You watched me become lonely, lost and insecure
You watched me burn all the memories away
You watched my sentences grow shorter
But you didn’t help me and then
Came a point where there was
Nothing left nothing
Except the
Silence.

Who says money can't buy happiness? It bought your heart and your soul and trust me, that was enough for me.
Or at-least I thought so.

I stood in front of the mirror and slit my wrists. I let the blood flow instead of the tears. I looked at the girl in the mirror who held the blade to her heart as if it was the only thing she had ever loved that had loved her back.

She watched them all pick up their broken pieces before dawn came and made them mask their sadness into the depths of their hearts. Oh how they hoped that the sun would sink below the horizon so they could be who they truly were “broken monsters”.

She had never seen the stars shine so bright.
But, deep inside she knew it was not the stars that had changed but it was her heart.

"But, why baby? You were the brightest thing in this dark world"

sharp were the pieces of her shattered heart

He had looked in her eyes as if he couldn’t unlock his gaze and saw nobody but her. The memory was etched in her heart for eternity. Fog was rising she knew soon that everything would be lost like tears are in the rain. The sadness would last forever.

Look at us we are young and so sad, Long sleeves, Fake Smiles, ****** Wrists, Shadowed Eyes
Look at us we are young and so sad, We are the generation that isn't destined to last.

His eyes they shone so bright, they held all the happiness I wanted
His eyes they turned so cold, they gave me all the sadness I deserved

I've gotten to the point where i don't want to admit this but i would rather hear a lie from you telling me that you love me just once baby just once and trust me it would give me enough happiness and sadness to last a lifetime.

Empty Shadows
Bitter Hearts
Haunting Ghosts
Downcast eyes
Broken Smile
1 a.m. texts
Drunken Voicemails
Cigarette Ashes
Bandaged Wrists
But baby ‘the night has just began”

“You left leaving me nothing but a ghost haunting our memories”

You didn’t hear me
You left not even looking back once and the worst part is
I didn’t say anything because I trusted you and believed that you would look back without me having to scream over and over again that
I needed you.

As reckless as the wind she would be
Because she knew
She who is brave is free