I shed a tear for you
From time to time.
Sometimes a little.
Often a river
When I’m missing you.

So hard to find you
In the hustle of the grind.
Family first, y’know,
Day to day.

Then I remember,
I can’t ignore,
That you were once me
I once you,
That little boy,
The adolescent,
The teen.

These days I shed a tear for you,
And then realize that you are me.

On a grey day,
On a blue day,
I'd like to just float away.

I do not hate growing older
I hate the failure's reminder
Turning into another number
No achievements to remember
My twenties are almost over
My childhood still need closure

When you smile at me,
I smile in return
A genuine smile
No less, no excess
For smiles reflect my truth.

If I don’t smile,
It’s not meant to offend
It simply means,
That I cannot pretend
Not every soul
deserves the warmth I send
-An undeniable truth .

For my smile speaks volumes,
Far more than words,
like a mirror of feeling,
And if it’s withheld,
Don’t be taken aback—
I just can’t pretend
It’s just a silent truth!!

I have things I absolutely cannot do.
I swear it is not a lie but 100% true.

I cannot message strangers online.
Have caused trouble time after time.

I cannot be alone near fire.
Please don't ask why.

I can only watch certain shows.
Everything below TV14.

I can not walk around alone.
Need someone with me.

escape reality,
looking for light,
but always ending up in the darkness