Letting go
Of something you love
Is like letting  go a rubber band
And you're holding it
from both ends

Going through a time
Where being myself
Feels like a crime

Insecure about who I am
About the way I walk
Feeling like a hologram
Not able to talk

Think I need a new personality
Something more likable
A someone with more functionality
And a person more reliable

Waiting for the day
To feel like a somebody
Keep these feelings at bay
And live a life like everybody

Ambitious and cheerful
She smiles
And fills our days
With giggles
And contagious laughter

But as you look into her eyes
Her beautiful brown eyes
empty
A bird stripped from its wings
Yearning to be free
Free from all the sorrows
Sorrows of today
And maybe of tomorrow

She's a warrior
Who never gives up
A sonnet
Beautiful and graceful
A diamond in the rough
Waiting for the perfect time to shine

She's my inspiration
My reason to look forward to the day
My partner in crime
My **best friend

Shaky breathing
Jelly legs
As I watch you from across the room
Laughter echoing
Your face lighting up like the sun

Oh the way you smile
Makes me go crazy
Eyes crinkling
Dimples showing
Tugging a string in my chest

You stop talking and turn your head
Our eyes meet
I hold my breath
Heart beat quickens
Hands start to get sweaty
You smile
Corners of my mouth start to twitch
I smile back

"Look what you've done?"
"It's all your fault"
"Stop crying"
"You're being such a baby"

I wipe away my tears
And put on a smile
A mask that conceals the scars
The pain
The guilt
The universe is never in my favor

"Clumsy"
"Irresponsible"
"Useless"
These words always ringing in my ears
Haunting me
Keeping me up at night
Im shedding silent tears
And waking up with a heavy feeling
In my chest
  
Waking up
With a smile on my face
A *mask