I'm scared and
It's such a familiar feeling
Because everything we are
Once did
And always will
Make me unstable on my feet
Stepping up again
Like we are
To try to restart a history
That has been set on repeat
Is so dangerous
Possibly even
Unwise
Yet here we go
Praying that
This time
It will actually be different
And knowing what I know
Which is what I stand to lose
I'm so ******* afraid
That not for lack of trying
*I'm still not Good enough

What is there to say
When your
Being,
Has been shamefully disrupted
By feelings that were put
Away before
They ever had the
Chance to consume
Any of the
Raw edges
Of what you are
Blind-sided by
Loveless embraces,
And
Fists flying through walls
I'm frightened
Of what has bloomed inside
My echoing ribcage

*Help Me

I am nothing
If not human in
My own right

I am not an angel
I cannot save
Every lost
Person
Who stumbles
Drunk into
My
Path

Though I may try

I won't read minds
Or keep
Promises
Or
Accomplish
the impossible

I too am lost
And so
Afraid
Putting people together
Like shards of broken glass
Cutting
Myself
On all
Of their edges

I'm sorry that I am not
Eternal
Or smooth
And that I break too

*But I am human
Please remember
That I too
'Shatter'