All my strength is gone
I can't fake it anymore
I'm not strong
I'm not resilient
I'm weak, broken
Damaged, alone
I'm too tired to fight
So I just let them in
Let my thoughts win
And I'm so grateful for these masks
So I don't have to wear mine
No forced smile to hide behind
And if you see it in my eyes
It's so much easier now
To say "I'm just tired,
But yeah I'm fine".

It's getting bad again
Snuck up unexpectedly
Simple tasks leave me drained
Won't sing to my favorite songs
And the things that used to excite me
Just leave me feeling numb.
Laundry piling up
Dishes in the sink
Don't want to move
Too tired to think.
I have to try to push it down
Been doing too well to backslide
But I can't even mutter the words
Or fake a smile to hide behind
Doing the bare minimum
To keep myself alive
To satisfy my friends and family
But what if one of these days
That's not a good enough reason for me

I just want you to love me
but I know you never will
Why would someone make me feel
like I'm wanted, beautiful and worthy
When all anyone wants is my body
And what they can do to me.

I live my life
just waiting to die
but death sure is
taking its time.
So sometimes,
I blow through stop signs
to try and speed things up.