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2.5k · Apr 2016
The Bench, The Visitor
Tristan Rethman Apr 2016
The bench, made of many things, like support,
From loved ones, or others very close, or hopes,
Of the same, etching into the legs, of this bench.

Strongest metal, I dare to say, composes the legs,
Of this bench, upon which I sit, among other things,
Like the wood, from the strongest oak, that's unbending.

Yes I sit, upon this beautiful piece, of collaboration
Of my family, I admire their dedication, but I dash it,
I apologize, but you see I sadly, must reject it.

This because, what sits upon this bench, is not me,
at least, not entirely or only me, but the visitor,
it's silent, an aura of death surround it, ghastly.

It sits, this bench that used to hold, now folds,
The visitor, quite happily enjoys, the sight
Of falling, I'm falling down, onto ground.

Nowhere, that's where I land, for I have done
the deed, I am no more unfortunately, my regrets,
The visitor, he has claimed victory, and I defeat.

I lay, breathless and unliving, quite ugly,
Not only that, but this beautiful bench, a waste,
My last blunder, I've sparked the fire asunder, Goodbye.
2.5k · Apr 2016
Taxi Cab
Tristan Rethman Apr 2016
Taxi cab, oh taxi cab
Where art thou?
Come hither unto me
And take me somewhere right now

I need a change of scenery,
snap snap, take me there
I need a different memory,
Who, what, where?

Taxi cab, oh taxi cab
Thou hast my heart
Approach upon me carrying
My new start

I require your assistance,
My demons are close behind
They follow with persistence,
How I wish they were blind

Taxi cab, oh taxi cab
Taketh mine own heart
If thou cannot save me
At least let me restart

Rubber onto road,
quick before they see
For my demons, they have growed,
and are still chasing me

Taxi cab, oh taxi cab
Thou hast the only escape
To be or not to be,
Breaks the image agape

Barreling down the alley,
faster please, oh dear
this may be my death valley,
the reaper, he is near

Taxi cab, oh taxi cab
Thine hast tried so hard
"Here, buy yourself some new wheels"
I say and give my card

I'm cowering upon the horde,
they're towering up above
Oh my, what I would reward,
to my peace dove

Taxi cab, oh taxi cab
Run while thy has the chance
Pitter patter down the road
Don't give me another glance

They dive unto me,
I wretch and scream
The scene plays out violently,
Sadly, not a dream
One of my favorites
1.4k · Mar 2016
The Golden Rule
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
"Do to others
As you want done to yourself"
Says the mothers
Sitting on that high bookshelf

Looking down, unaccepting
As you ****,
Her with one deadly swing
"Just rules, Jill"

The problem with that rule,
The big flaw,
My want to die, so cruel,
Breaks that law
791 · Nov 2015
Friends
Tristan Rethman Nov 2015
Talking so happily
Helping, hugging, loving
Giggle very silly
Tickle, wiggle, squeal

Blushes abound, all around
Their love is different
They help each other stand their ground
With snuggles under the blanket

One cries, the other consoles
Back rub, cheek kiss, compliment
They don't feel like two wholes
Just two parts of a family
Met a very nice friend recently who has been helping me through some rough times. She inspired this so thanks Gabrielle~!
690 · Apr 2016
Under the Willow Tree
Tristan Rethman Apr 2016
I saw her for the first time
We shared her first kiss
She tasted a little of lime
It was pure bliss

Under the Willow Tree

Another kiss, different occasion,
A ring on her finger, pretty like a dove
As we completed the equation
Her and I equals love

Under the Willow Tree

But sadly, more than a couple times
We met there under less exquisite reasons
My dad died, her mom was wronged by crimes
And we cried throughout the seasons

Under the Willow Tree

Although we met even more
To celebrate the better things
A new baby, a place we built, score!
Made me want to sing

Under the Willow Tree

The house built, home made
had a trickle, tweets, a buzz
But one main feature was displayed,
The nostalgia brought because it was

Under the Willow Tree
Met my current love under a willow tree :)
586 · Dec 2015
Gorgeous Genocide
Tristan Rethman Dec 2015
Look at the world, you may find
Sunshine, rainbows, fantastic mankind
But when you actually look
You'll find all you need to know in a history book
I'm talking death, suffering, immeasurable grief
All caused by people, to people, no disbelief
Yes when you take everything in
All that'll happen is the beast mankind will maul you and grin
Because we humans are curious beings
We ****** and steal; **** and we ****, all without seeing
The affect of our devastation
Mother nature the victim of our molestation
Animals being made just to die
I think we are all on a power high
We proclaim we are better than all else
But in reality we are just tiny whelps
On some great being's mighty ***
You say, "Now don't be so crass!"
Yet we glutinously eat anything living
Doesn't that sound like a horror beginning?
Just a poem that is a critique on humanity.
562 · Nov 2015
The Dread of Living
Tristan Rethman Nov 2015
I wake up each day
That's the start
My mind is in fray
Torn apart

A day of more school
Nothing's new
It's always so cruel
Always blue

I go through classes
Painful dread
Slow as molasses
I am dead

The school day finished
So tired
I feel diminished
Not wired

I get to my house
Why no end
My Mom starts to grouse
Starts to blend

I lay down in bed
No reprieve
The voice in my head
Makes me grieve

I pick up the blade
Hold it close
It has been forbade
Heals my woes

Against the right wrist
It belongs
I cannot resist
No more wrongs

The bright streak of red
Trickles down
Leaves stains on the bed
With a frown

This time no stopping
All the way
Until I'm dropping
No foul play

My parents burst in
Fall to floor
Sobs come from within
Can't take more

Hospital was called
There's no hope
The doctors appalled
Mom can't cope

Everything has changed
No relief
Mom's become deranged
Dad's in grief

Remember you're loved
Through and through
And although you're sad
You'll get through
This is a poem I wrote as I was having a really rough day at school and my mind was in a really dark place. It really helped me to vent my feelings and that's why it got happier at the end!
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
I need** to demand a commitment to be obliged
To improve or maybe advance, to better and correct
The pain and ache, the agony of the burn

I'm stalling to hamper and postpone and stop
My death and annihilation, more appropriately bereavement
With my last hope a whim or belief that my confidence's last strand

To cureand recover, with drug or elixir
The condition, my ailment and disease that ills the syndrome of my agony

And win to become the victor of accomplishing an achievement
The fight to battle the skirmish of assault and bombardment

Too bad it failed with defeat, disappointed with failure

It's still here by attending my presence to be beside me forevermore
547 · Nov 2015
Don't Befriend Me
Tristan Rethman Nov 2015
Don't Befriend Me
I'll lure you in
Act very nice
Show my within
But hide my vice

Don't Befriend Me
Once you are here
I'll trap you in
With what you hear
I hide my grin

Don't Befriend Me
I will hurt you
Not on purpose
But still I do
Hide my fakeness

Don't Befriend Me**
Hurt you, I'll do
Please don't hate me
I didn't mean to
Hide my sad plea

Just do not befriend me
I never want to do
But I always will be
A monster with no clue
Hello everyone. This poem originates from my romantic relationships ironically. It touches on how I've been the reason every one of those has failed. Thank you for reading and I always welcome feedback.
531 · Mar 2016
The Shimmering Illusion
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
Her hair falls upon her shoulders gentler than the soothing waves of the ocean on a midsummer's evening.
Her eyes shine so bright as she looks back to me with a grin, oh her smile. Brings me back to times where I thought everything was alright in this world.
The dimples on her cheeks are just inviting my lips to them and my hands to her hips. She walks to me with such grace like a ballerina.
We meet and our lips graze each other, she bites her lower lip inviting me to her. I lean in for a kiss and get lost in her face.
We kiss repeatedly as we fall onto the couch with her on top of me.
I look up to her and for a split second I see nothing but a skull in the place of her beautiful face.
I blink it away and get my focus back to her.
She asks what’s wrong in a distorted voice and I hit my head, getting those images out, pushing them deeper.
She separates her lips and roaches crawl out and down her face onto me. I scream and fall off the couch swatting the insects away.
I look up to where she still lays and see my beautiful girl once again. I get up, apologizing for my moment, blaming it on exhaustion and laying down with her again.
I feel a sharp pain on my wrists and flinch, closing my eyes shut, and when I open them I am bleeding out on the floor of my parents room.
505 · Nov 2015
A Call to Action
Tristan Rethman Nov 2015
Grief. sorrow. sadness. and pain
Living life with such disdain

You never looked even for my breath
Then you say you can't believe my death

Alright. It Doesn't matter anyway
Not like, I was ever getting away

Me. Yeah, The one in the back, I'm laying flat
Put a bullet through my head, sound of a gat

Why am I detained in a life I didn't chose, whose
idea was it, force me to live, I'm singing the blues,

Here's news, get off my back and let me swing, without,
a wing or anything stopping me from dying

Now you sing, the words that come from sorrow
As everyone like me sit on death's row

Get up and act, take it into your own hands
GO! Stand, take a hand even if it's not planned

Let my story be a lesson, pressin', into your mind
And make it a thing, do not allow anyone be blind

We can stop it, together, forever
Do not ever think otherwise, Never!
This was originally written as a rap styled piece (by me of course) but I revised it to be more of a poem in a traditional stance with the two line stanzas and equal syllables for those two lines.
502 · Mar 2016
This One Asshole
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
What a ******* *******
Thinking he's so high and mighty
Taking the day off just to sit on his ***
Stupid priveledged whitey
Refuses to see the favorable position he's in
Just likes to believe he is lower
To get pity from others and kin
Maybe he's just a **** blower
****, what a *******
Stupid as **** get outta my sight
You're about to get hit
And you know I'm right
Go to hell man
You don't deserve the **** you have
You're so pale, not tan
Not even smooth, no, not suave
I shouldn't have to stare at this dope
He better not get any nearer
I'm thinking of this while putting on soap
and staring into a mirror...
422 · Dec 2015
When does life begin?
Tristan Rethman Dec 2015
When we are young it starts
We go to school nearly 8 hours a day

When does life begin?

Well, after school
Then why do I go home with homework

When does life begin?

Perhaps, following that
Yet I'm exhausted and must get rest

When does life begin?

The weekends then, right after Friday
Oh, sorry I have to work and pay for my food

When does life begin?

After all that the real stuff starts
Like work, bills, and taxes?

When does life begin?

Well maybe when you finally retire
So when I'm old, disabled, and nearly dead?

That's when life begins?
The longer I live the more it seems like we are all just zombies doing our endless responsibilities. What is the point?
398 · May 2016
Don't
Tristan Rethman May 2016
Don't
Just stop
I don't mean to come off rude
But spare me of your interlude

I don't need your apologies
for what has happened so please
Keep your prayers or wishes
Because I'll be sleeping with the fishes

Don't shed a single tear
And I really don't want to hear
Your cries and wails and moans
From my existence shattering your bones

Because I really don't want your pity
I reject your sorrow, so gritty
I wish you didn't hurt so much
For my being here and such

I'm not worth anything really
It's actually all too silly
I should leave, get out of your hair
It would be better if you didn't care
362 · Mar 2016
Apathy in Vitro
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
It must be something else, maybe from the outside,
Apathy in vitro, there's no way it came from inside,

Maybe from a test tube, or maybe a special cask,
There's no way to explain it, an impossible task,

The care I have for anything, is almost to zero,
My only wish is not to feel, maybe I need a hero,

If a car comes barreling at me, I wouldn't be moved,
that concerned voice inside of me, has been removed,

If anything happens to me, you can be all too sure,
I probably deserved it, my worthlessness has no cure,

A small place in hell, reserved just for me,
I'm just an empty shell, don't even want to flee.
Tristan Rethman Nov 2015
Twinkle twinkle on the sharp blade
Oh all the cuts you have now made
The rivers run red, down the drain
The shower is on, where I remain
Crying sometimes, but mostly I sustain
As I open my dastardly veins
It stings like a ***** and that's the point
Man, I wish I could sit, try a joint
But that'd be easy don't you know?
This is all just god's ******* show
We are all shadows of who we really are
Some hide because it's easier, others scar
Dressing ourselves as someone we're just not
To impress people we don't like a lot
And people who have the most greed
Are often the ones who will lead
What's my problem? Well I will show you all the long list
I'm on the brim, look, these lines of why I slit my wrist
Wish I had cancer, or something grand
At least then people would understand
The pain that goes throughout my brain
A grain of empathy, disdain
I'm done now, this is the last time
I pick up the blade, do the crime
As my life drains out, you walk in
Now you care, I die with a grin
I've done it, the big great escape
You're no hero, not even a cape
With a recent relapse, I have chosen to immortalize my view of the experience of depression.
350 · Nov 2015
What We Preach
Tristan Rethman Nov 2015
We all say that hate is bad
But we all turn and make people sad

People claim we should care
But then they dissapear in thin air

We should not hurt or scream
Then why are bullies always in a team?

Everyone must remain peaceful
Yet everything I see is hateful

If you don't have anything nice to say
Just post it on the internet the next day

After the abused have had enough and die
The same people that hurt stand together and "cry"
Just a satirical piece on society and her many flaws.
350 · Mar 2016
Gorgeous Genocide
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
Look at the world, you may find
Sunshine, rainbows, fantastic mankind
But when you actually examine
You'll find even more than just famine
I'm talking death, suffering, immeasurable grief
All caused by people, to people, no disbelief
Yes when you take everything in
All that'll happen is the beast will maul you and grin
Because we humans are curious beings
We ****** and steal; **** and we ****, all without seeing
The affect of our devastation
Mother nature the victim of our molestation
Animals being made just to die
I think we are all on a power high
We proclaim we are better than all else
But in reality we are just tiny whelps
On some great being's mighty ***
You say, "Now don't be so crass!"
Yet we glutinously eat anything living
Doesn't that sound like a horror beginning?
322 · Apr 2016
Pure, Palpable, Perfect
Tristan Rethman Apr 2016
From head to toe
You have to know

You're Perfect!

The smooth of your hair
And it's smell, done with care

You're Perfect!

The velvet soft skin,
Your arms, I want to be in

You're Perfect!

Monochromatic eyes, dark brown and black
Give me absolutely everything I lack

You're Perfect!

Your angel white face
Lips, nose, cheeks, full of grace

You're Perfect!

Defined neck into cushioned collar bones
The ones I nibble that give you groans

You're Perfect!

Seamless mounds with cherries on top
Yes, they make me want to drop

You're Perfect!

Hips with drips that trips with another set of lips
Made only for the most intimate quips

You're Perfect!

Graceful legs underneath
Make me drool like a candy named Heath

This is all true,
Baby I'm correct,
And now you know,
You are ******* perfect
I love a girl and this is just written for her since she doesn't believe how perfect she is
273 · Mar 2016
Escaping My Fate
Tristan Rethman Mar 2016
The sting
the sharp tinge of the razor as it first slices into me
The Crimson
that first strand of blood trickles out
The agony
the sweet pain that pumps happiness through my veins
The finish
the ending of the stroke with the drop of my blade
The darkness
that creeps in from the edges as the blood becomes a stream
The regret
the absence of it, the joy of finally out running the pain
240 · Jan 2016
Is there a God?
Tristan Rethman Jan 2016
Is there a God?
Or should I say god?

I hope there's a God, he can help me survive
I hope there isn't a god, he put me through this life

I can forgive God, he probably did it for a reason
I hate god, there is no excuse for this treason

I love God, he made the earth, the stars, the sea
I resent god, he made the bullies, the pain... me
Not as much religious, but it does have that touch. It's more of a poin about perspective

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