Forever slipping, sitting at the bottom of the top of the food chain
Trying to stay dialed in, working on removing my latest stain while older ones still remain
Struggling with another rebuild from the ground up, "job well done" but never paid
One crucial thing was forgotten, no foundation laid
I've played and been played, gone when I shoulda stayed
Had my faith destroyed by the faithful though I've recently prayed
My mental health convinced me to refuse medical aid, at least by anyone trained
Stood and faced the death brigade firing squad and I'm the idiot who brought a blade
Witnessing the beginning of the end, acid rain on my parade
No wrongs righted, song and dance quieted, exposing the charade
A tailor-made masquerade, face the price when dues aren't paid
I fell to the fray, had to say, "today's your day Satan" but not to be a renegade
But because I'm pretty sure I make the man upstairs afraid
He hasn't answered any of the calls I've made

©2023

Tears formed from the fears of two hemispheres of wasted space
Find themselves in a fast pace race down the terrain of a familiar face
Heart and mind encased in a haze as I attempt to argue a flimsy case
That states;
This horde of unworldly insecurity life creates,
The alien thoughts unloaded in the wrong place
Then forced to take place,
Where never my own in the first place
The originals replaced then gone without a trace
No tracks to retrace
So no,
This isn't me making a break for it to save face
Because the worst off it circles back around at a dizzying pace
This is pointing out a particular fall from grace
The life of a waste

©2024

But I'll try
To find something
Out of you

I will make you
Fall for me
Then
I will catch you
Like feelings and butterflies
Till we both go crazy

So  I  have
Your love
Your thoughts.
Your beauty and scars

As rewards
Your smile
Your sadness
Your laughter
Like the sun
And the moon
Peaches and cream
Your shadow too

If I must
Then I shall,
And will seek
All the quiet nights
Where passion rise
Sweet delights Ice cream
And chocolate too

Love so true
And brew with
Tequila and wine

Now I have
Everything
From nothing
To something
Of you
Mind and soul

Exactly everything
My heart ever desired