The color has finally returned to my lips
I am no longer chilled by your presence
The ice is thawing
I am now healing
So dear God please stay away from me

I'm
Falling to pieces
But
I only
Want to fall asleep.

But how do you win when you've already lost?
And how do you forgive when you already know the cost?
What's it feel like?
I can't tell anymore, I'm so long lost.
Does it ever end?
Do we stop, dry our eyes, just pretend?
And if there is indeed a way out which one do you recommend?
What's it feel like?
Is there hope for the lost souls?
Is there a way to be good again?

The way you wear your favorite nirvana shirt makes me smile
I enjoy listening to you ramble in thought
There's something different in your tone
I know you are sad, but so am I
And maybe together we can find happiness
I'm not asking to be addicted to one another
I'm asking to be company
To sit and talk about the stars
To listen to Pearl Jam on repeat
To teach me video games and laugh uncontrollably at my lack of skill
I'm hoping to be the reason you smile even if it is for the shortest time period

Love is an act of selflessness
Love can come in the form of
"Put on your seat belt"
"Take a jacket"
"Be careful"
"I miss you"
Love is blind
Love sometimes goes unnoticed and can be taken for granted
Oh but how we cling to the idea of loving and being loved back.

But I'm not hear to give you unrealistic expectations
I write not of cliche love stories, sadness, or the color of walls around me
I write to express
I write to feel freedom
I write to please myself
And tell you my truths

I believe there's more to life than
Love
And
Small towns,
That anything can happen in the
Night lights
And
Street sounds