All those eyes face upon my movement like a circus monkey,
Laughing at the uncontrollable flailing of my arms and head.
How could I express my embarrassment of so many entertained by my misery,
Like the stabbing of needles around my whole body.
So much movement and sound moving in thousand beats per second,
"And this desire to release sensory overload by hitting against my head."
This solitude of being alone is overwhelming,
And I wish I can convey my deepest emotions.
Only if I can communicate my world to you,
And tell you how I feel.
To dream like you,
And have many aspirations.
How could I express these thoughts to you,
I am a human being stuck in a different body!
Please be patient with me,
Show me the right way,
And I will show you my deepest thoughts,
My dreams.
I was watching a video about this autistic girl, and how people thought she was less than human who could not convey her thoughts, but until she reached 11 and started to type on the computer. Wrote this in thoughts of this autistic girl's perspective, and some lines taken from her own direct context!
Youtube video
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vNZVV4Ciccg