We knew each other in middle school
We exchanged not two words
But ***** looks was all we would do
It's still a mystery
We didn't know each other
But we assumed
We should just stay away
To prevent stronger disagreement

I think of it now
And I hate it
I hate how
It took so long
For us to realize
That was all wrong

Now
Here we are
Talking
Laughing
I love you
And I can't imagine
My life
Lacking your presence
Your whole self
You are
Greater than the sky

wanna hear the secret
to having a perfect day?
don't try at all
and all will be okay

As I lay in bed, swimming in a sea of darkness
my body remains still like the air.
I think of everything that could falter
and I'm left with a feeling of despair.
My stomach turns, my body shakes
and I can't escape this feeling.
Anxiety has made a home in my head
and covered the path of healing.

She seemed nice
I stay away

He was funny
I stay away

They were friendly
I stay away

Keep your distance;
That's my rule

Keep them far enough
Away
That they
Will never hurt you

You were kind
Nice
Funny
Friendly
Sweet
Smart

I should run
I should hide
Keep away
Stay safe

My feet don't listen
I stay
Now I'm stuck

*Crap

There was a time

When I couldn't climb a tree
Without thinking
Of how easy it would be to
"Slip"

When I couldn't cut potatoes
Without thinking
Of how easy it would be
To slit my wrists

When I couldn't take a swim
Without thinking
Of how easy it would be
To stop swimming

There was a time
When I couldn't live
Without thinking
Of how easy it would be
*To give up