Grace Butler

Grace Butler Sep 2020

You can’t see something is wrong
Or you do see it but chose to ignore it
You don’t ask me what’s wrong
The person you claim you love
But I see you asking people you hardly talk to if they’re ok
So I don’t understand why you can’t do the same for me
Why don’t you chose me

#alone #lonely #love #choice #why

Grace Butler Jun 2020

I want to be pretty

“I just want to be pretty”
I whisper to myself
As I look at the parts of me
That I see as flaws
“I just want to be pretty”
I say as I look in the mirror
At my large stomach
My thick thighs
My chubby cheeks
And my double chin
“I just want to be pretty”
I whisper to myself

Thoughts of a sad big girl

#pretty #sad #thoughts

Grace Butler Apr 2020

Awake

I lay awake laying next to you
Amidst the tears rolling down my cheeks
I hear you stir in your sleep
I lay here awake worried I woke you up
But hoping you’d notice my pain
I lay here awake, you fall back asleep
I lay here awake, tears down my face

#awake #tears #sad #sleep #lay #pain

Grace Butler Apr 2020

I tried.

I try so hard to be ok
I was tired of being tired
Tired of crying
And I did well for a while
I really did
But I’m not ok
I’m not ******* ok
I feel defeated and alone
And I’m left here, missing you
Laying in my bed, tears down my cheeks
Missing you.

#sorry #hurt #missing #you #defeated #okay #tears #sad

Grace Butler Mar 2020

Thoughts

I don’t know what thoughts are going through my head because I can’t hear them
I don’t know what I think because all I can hear is the opinions of others
I don’t know what I want
I can’t think I can’t think I can’t think

#opinions #thoughts #short #help

Grace Butler Jan 2020

Mirror

Everytime I look in the mirror, I wonder what you see in me.
I see all my flaws, you see my beauty.
I see scars, you see my survival.
I see all the acne and bags under my eyes, you see my struggle to sleep with understanding. You see that I try to take care of myself but it’s hard sometimes.
In comparison to others I feel immensely inferior.
So I ask myself what do you see in me?
Why can’t I see what you see?

Why does the mirror deceive me?

“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder”
Why do I see me the way I do?

#mirror #beauty #flaws #scars #acne #acceptance

Grace Butler Dec 2019

Love is indescribable

I hope that one day, you get a text from someone and think “wow, I love her so much” or “that’s my girl, she’s gorgeous “ or anything like that. And I know that it might not be me and that’s ok. It will hurt for a while I promise you that, but no matter what I want you to reach a point of being completely in love with someone. I want you to be happy and if you reach that moment, that moment of complete love, with or without me.. I will be happy for you because if I love you, I would want to see you happy. I still love you... but love is indescribable.. it can build you up and tear you down at the exact same moment. Love begins and it can end in the exact. same. moment. It teaches you lessons you’ll remember for a lifetime and all I can say about it is... I’m glad to have the opportunity of loving you.

To the love I lost

#gone #love #breakup