I realize
That not all men
****

That not all men
Beat

That not all men
Brutalize

That not all men
Leave

That not all men
Are destructive

But it's enough men
For me to be scared
Of all men

As I lay next to him in bed
He says words
Foriegn to his tounge
"I love it when you sing"
I know he's afraid to lose me.
"I'm sorry
I ever called your writing trite."
"You look so beautiful like that."
Why?
You only see me when the color drains
From my eyes.
You only see me
When I'm fading.

My feet are planted in today,
But
My mind wanders into the past
And yet,
My heart yearns for the future.

you're so caught up
with your own problems
you forget to
count blessings instead
so get up
go out there
crawl if you must
just don't let the darkness
take the best of you

I can't be so sure
about you
when you play on my insecurities
wielding them like weapons
I've discovered
that your laughter and smiles
are a happy facade
for something much darker
dare I delve inside?
I don't know what I might find
perhaps the truth about myself
*or maybe just a web of lies