I had to leave you
So I could prove to myself that I can be a go-getter.
I made something of myself and it doesn't seem to sit well with you.
You're drinking with my enemies and telling tales of my little beginnings like they're yours to sell.


I could have stayed and let you ruin me,
I should have stayed and masturbated while you watched and spoke to your other lovers on the phone.
I would have stayed and let you keep feeding me,
But I'm a very proud fabric,
Softeners can never weaken my fibers.


I could have stayed and been unable to write this message to you;
I could have pegged my life a repeated error-message and decided to give up;
But I realized that you desperately wanted me to do so,
So I walked away broken so you could have your happy ending.

My copacetic life:
Boring, plain, safe.
I am only resting and waiting
To just stop existing
I never waited for you
Or the fear you instill to me
Because why would I
Angel/Devil
I do not know you
But I want to

Temptation,
All around.
When focus,
Is all I need.

Worry,
Seeks guidance,
From me.

Dreams,
I see,
Drifting further away.

My life,
Passing by,
In front of me.

Seize,
I remember,
Although not many.

The mental imprint,
Of the greatest
And the worst.

I see,
My greatest tragedies,
In absolute truth.

I see,
My greatest triumphs,
In ultimate simplicity.

My life,
Naked.
Dissected.

Destiny is made,
When you master,
Not the exterior.

Death
Purpose
Freedom

Persistence
Time
Priority

Soul­

Believe,
Believe In yourself.
Nurture the garden,
That is your mind.

there is me,
trying to reach you.
and there is you,
caught in a web.