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Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Break...... Mend....

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Stiji Alphonsa

Break...... Mend....

Broken hearts
Hardly
mend!!

Mended hearts
Hardly
break.. !!

#heartbreak

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

They Can, But I Will

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Shattered Thoughts

They Can, But I Will

They can tell me what to do
But I will not move
They can tell me what say
But I will speak the truth
They can tell me what to think
But I will listen to my heart, head, and soul
Truth be told
You are nothing but an obstacle
One I shouldve moved past long ago

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Guilt

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Shattered Thoughts

Guilt

Next to her.
Behind her.
Above her.
Below her.
Everywhere.
Guilt.
The words, there's nothing you could have done, echo in her mind.
She doesn't believe them.
Because she knows she could have saved him.
His soft blue eyes stare at her.
She won't apologize because she had to.
But that doesn't mean she will forgive herself.
Ever.

the guilt will always bury me, choke me, never let me go

#guilt #pain #regret #broken

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Stolen sky

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Izzy

Stolen sky

You stole my sky
You stole my stars
Now when I look at the night sky
I don't see a hope for tomorrow
I don't find peace
I can't find the old me cause
You stole my sky
You stole my stars
You stole all I ever had

And now you are gone
You run away with my heart
You left me with few broken pieces
And I am not even able to hate you for that.

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Okay

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Izzy

Okay

I am okay
I am okay
I am okay

Tears dropping, eyes flooding, hands shaking but

I am okay
I am okay
I am okay

I keep telling myself

You ask me why
I don't reply

You ask me when
I can't say

You ask me how you can help
I say "It is too late"

I don't have anything else to say

Red eyes, lost sight, head exploding
I won't be fine
I already know that

BUT STILL

I am okay
I am okay
I am okay

I will be okay if I am gonna full someone else

We are running out of time

#depression

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

I used to not be able to climb up the stairs,

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Izzy

I used to not be able to climb up the stairs,

The constant dizziness were my new friend on the way up there,
I had to make a pause every each few steps.
I had to keep my hand on the wall to keep the balance, to not fall down and to be able to keep up.

Too weak,
Too fragile
and
Too hungry,
to go up

When I look back I am sad and terrified that such situations made me feel proud. It was just like walking on the edge.

#anorexia #eatingdisorder #recovery

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

spring cleaning

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

youcancallmesierra

spring cleaning

forgive you once
forget you twice
need better people
in my life
won't listen to
you this time
don't speak stupid
i read signs
i'll follow those
leave you behind
evict you to
cleanse my mind

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

don't put it out

Jul 2020 Bryn Kennell

Renée

don't put it out

your aching lungs seek life—
is breath mist or is it smoke
from fire underneath your tongue
borne of words you nearly say
but don't
trust the fire—burn the leftover
sawdust in your mouth, don’t put it out
there’s stardust in your veins
don’t put it out