I’ve been having writer’s block
I stare at this piece of paper trying to think of ways to express the love I have for him
But all the possible sentences end it in goodbye.

When you left
I needed a new addiction
something that would let me forget you but would let me  remember  how your tongue tasted.
Soon after that alcohol turn into my baby.

-Aztec

I forgot how his grin was,
I forgot the warmth of his hands on a fall night.
I forgot
I forgot the way he would hold me
and I forgot the way he would look at me.
But if I saw him again
I know it will still hurt
Everything will come back.
Im okay now. Ive accepted everything.

When I saw you again.
My heart was pounding so dam hard
I couldn't breathe, My body was so tense my hands were shaking.
Everything felt like a dream, I couldn't believe it  you were right in front of me.
A year of missing you and having scenarios of seeing you again.
Here you are.
I hugged you without hesitating,
Your warmth
your cologne
your body
All in my arms.
Your voice was music to my ears.
That grin that made me melt.
we shared a laughed one more time
And that kiss at the end made me sure it wasn't a dream.
I got what I wanted but I was selfish and I asked for more.