I sang a song to a bird
With the wind I had a flirt
I took a ride on a cloud
Told a story out loud
I danced together with the leaves
Bowed my head to the trees
I took a picture with an ant
Made a silly face with a friend
I sealed my mouth with a glue
Saw a picture of a kangoroo
I saw the moons in the sky
Let my eyes tell a lie
I met an apple with a heart
And all of this wasn't hard
As I don't have any guard
I let my soul have fun today
Oh, what a feeling what a day

Sadly this woman with the biggest heart
Has to rip out her most loving thoughts
She must turn cold
For over her, people just rolled

She alway knew they would
But she still did what she could
She so desperately wanted to belive
That everyone that was truly in need
Would appreciate what she did
She had the faith of a little kid
She believed there was good in most everyone
But now with all of that, she was done

There finally was that last straw
Finally a line she had to draw
This decision was agonizingly painful
After this, she didn't know what she would live for, would she be able

The pain of this was greater then all that had came before
This killing of her own soul hurt so much more
Than what any human monster had inflicted
With this her heart would truly be restricted

She took the broken pieces of her being
Ground them to dust as tears down her checks kept steaming
She knew with this final self inflicted act
There would be no coming back

There would be no more love, no hope
If not for drugs, how would she cope

With one last sigh
One last cry
She pounded what made her, her to dust
She felt no other way out, it was a must
The chain that bound her to helping others just turned to rust
It broke and fell away
She wondered why on this earth would she now stay

For with all the good she had tried to spread into this wicked place
She sincerely thought it would be returned when difficulties she faced
Only to find
No other human would act as kind

Every single person she tured to
Only replied "what can I do"
"I would help, but I must put myself first"
Her loving heart made her feel so utterly cursed

So she decided that was it
No longer with the afflicted would she sit
No longer would she put others before herself
They could all fall off the ******* shelf

This decision was not freeing
It was gonna **** her completely, her fragile soul, her being
It was gonna break the ties that held her to this life
But when she need help, no one was there to end the strife

Now this woman with the biggest heart
Has to rip out her most loving thoughts
Now she is as cold and heartless as the rest
But look really hard, there is still the stain of tears upon her breast

three letters

that don't really mean anything

but somehow describe

*exactly how I feel

I let you in,
You pushed me out.
I built you up,
You filled me with doubt.
I gave you reasons to smile,
You tore me down.
I gave you words of encouragement,
You were the reason behind my frown.
I have kept every secret you told me,
You betray me.
I prevented you from feeling trapped,
You prevented me from being free.
You don't care,
You continue to hurt me,
You were never there.
You pushed me away,
Slowly at first, then all at once,
More and more each day.
Guilting me into staying by your side,
Controlling me like a puppet,
Making my emotions your free roller-coaster ride.
What kind of sick friendship is this?
Am I someone you really trust?
Or is this a friendship that won't be missed?

I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I HATE THIS
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I DON'T GET HOW YOU ALREADY STOPPED LOVING ME YOU TOLD ME YOU'D LOVE ME UNTIL THE STARS TURN COLD AND NOW THERE'S NOTHING BUT A ******* HOLE AND A BURNING SENSATION IN MY HEART
STOP MOVING ON JUST HOLD ON FOR A SECOND DON'T YOU SEE ME FALLING APART? OR DO YOU EVEN CARE ANYMORE?
MAYBE THAT'S WHAT YOU LEFT FOR.
YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE

You make a list in your head of what you want in a lover:
Brown hair.
Beautiful eyes.
A sharp mind.
A soft heart.
You want someone with a sense of humor.
One that actually makes you laugh like you mean it.
This and that.
It's all *******.
Because.
People.
Aren't.
List.
And I have always wanted to be the person,
who made someone realize that.
I want to come across someone with a list in their head,
that is nothing like the person I am,
And I want to show them what they didn't even know they were looking for.
People who think they know what they want are fooling themselves.
Nobody really knows what they want.
Not until it is right in front of them.

How sad it is
that we see people
with our eyes

We should
look at people
with our souls