Alice

Alice Jan 2020

you noticed.

if nothing else,
if we will never be more
than the faint wonderings
of what could have been.

even if this is as far as the story goes,
at least once, just once,

I was seen

you know things about me that I don't even notice

#love #hope #unrequited #bestfriend #crush #secret

Alice Dec 2019

miss manners

There are some things
not to be said, like
"i'm tired of having to explain myself to you"
and
"i'm happier now that you're gone"

#love #hurt #toxic #family #relationship #hope #want

Alice Dec 2019

that night

the soft evening light
illuminated your face
and the longer i looked
the more certain i became
that
there has never been
and could never be
anyone
as utterly mesmerizing
as you

Alice Dec 2019

11:26

And its ******, ya know?
the fact that the only person
who sees me,
is the only person
i know would break my heart
if given the chance

everyone in my life tells me he's not good for me, but it doesn't feel that way when we're together

#toxic #love #heart #relationship #sad #alone #break #want #need

Alice Nov 2019

Uncertainty

How can you tell if someone is going to
stay by your side? What are the warning signs
that show you it'll only end in pain?
Where is the road map to a healthy relationship?
I'm so tired of betting on the good in people.
I'm so tired of being understanding.
I'm so ******* tired of going to bed every
single night, wondering if I'm still loved.

3:47 AM and I still can't fall asleep

#uncertain #hope #hopeless #wonder #love #loved #hurt #toxic #broken #sad

Alice Nov 2019

I can't escape

i knew you were toxic
i knew you weren't good
but you understood me
and
that scares me
what if that means
i'm like you

#hurt #alone #sad #love #toxic #scared #confused

Alice Oct 2019

tired

the sadness
is back again
i don't know why
it just seems like every time
i get better
or
i move forward
the world tilts
and all of a sudden
i am no longer running away
i am running into the darkness
always running
and i'm tired
so tired

#sad #poem #love #depression #hopeless #want #alone #loney