right after losing the thought
you come back
and build up a hurricane
inside the unsafe waters within me
that search for land
but now are lost again
with no sight of anything
not even the stars

it starts
my eyes start to forget the look of your smile
my hands start to forget the feeling of your cheeks
my nose starts to forget the smell of your neck
my mouth starts to forget the gentle touch of your lips;

my mind starts to forget why you made me happy.

maybe not looking like i would
             not sounding like i would
             not moving like i would
but
i am until
i found myself

then just leave it
leave my head
don't hug me like you miss me
don't pretend you really wanted it
leave my head
pretend you didn't know me
until one of us
dives under

i feel
safe in the night
droplets against my chin
blending with the tears
you call your own;

let me
escape from the storm
you created after paradise
and run
run with the wind