If I could I would date the sky because sometimes there's a storm but it quickly comes by and the sun always rises again
But with you the thunder never ends
:

Don't bring my hopes up if you are just passing through
If you are planning on making them fall down in a small moment or two
I'm getting tired of this roller coaster you made me ride
It's giving me a nauseous feeling inside
I'm about to throw up all these hidden emotions on you
But I don't want to because I know that then I'll completely lose you

My heart is pounding so fast it could almost  escape my ribcage and blow up
My fingers are cold and white as if the life in them wasn't present
My face pale and tired from the lack of sleep
I don't know how long I'll be able to last

I put on a fake smile to cover up the overpowering pain I hide indide of me
I don't want to hurt them with my hurt
They won't ever see me cry
Everyone has their own problems afterall
I'll rather pretend like everything is fine

What more is there to do? I'll just silently try to push through this suffering
They can't help me only your love could but you've disappeared and my sanity disappeared with you

Loving you should be considered as a form of self harm

You are cold and I try to distance myself but then for a split second you act warm again and I can't contain the butterflies flying from my belly to my back and my hands

Why do I always have to choose somebody like you?
Complicated, making me feel unwanted
How dare you give me hope and than take
everything away with a snap of your fingers

Please tell me why
I don't deserve this
Or do I? You make me question everything I do, every word I say, the way I move
My pulse is uncontainable, my head hurts and I can't sleep

I should have never let you in
I sensed you'll be trouble from the begining
But I couldn't help it and now I don't know if I am mad at you or mad at myself

Loving you IS a form of self harm