Private Party next door,
My Pen ready to commit ******...
Joy of life though not a sin
For them everything a Joy spin.

Dance! Dance and live your passions
As you are! Dance... But please, leave me alone with my poetry and my soul.

Kiss of death,
                           A touch of renewed life.

Are spilling, broken chains
Of your heart in pain excruciable
Blessed
Your places

What's not to love about me?
I can't see...
The stupid cow I have become?

I really don't get it...


   The chicken in all this, perhaps... ?

But then comes the cat scratching the door and spoils all the fun.

Helped regret all my acts of kindness,
Tell beauty, if you like...
Now I wish I were dead...
Lesson learned? Duty call
For my reaction isn't forlorn.

Stupid all my prayers,
Perhaps a curse will work much better...
For that better world imagined, so longed for.

How could I not support her, the one who helped me so.
And they say I needed my medicine.
She cures it all.

Oceans of lusting life tide

Drop of clouds

Rippled show of consequence.

Sometimes we laugh and sometimes we cry
Enjoying our moments in wealth and good vibes
But there are those times when we get caught and despair,
Only a miracle can save us, dear friend,
                                                              from our poetry's tragic end.

One night fully spent in the wake of long hours,
With thoughts streaming loud: You'll be mine,
Look what we've prepared for you!"
The images moving in slow motion in waves,
Only a miracle can save us, good friend.

Peaceful times disturbed, lust for life,
                                                        lust for the eternal love,
Why don't we dare to know all this justice?
Why am I asking for more sorrow and trouble?
Only a miracle can save us from ourselves.

An elephant and an ant once met
In a tree fruiting great harmony
Flowers have bloomed,
Birds have sang
Everyone felt happier than ever, my friend.

So I said: Her eyes were pure,
Her Soul: Too cruel
To let you cry.

Left your home for something better in return...
Yet she is the only one to know
About that soul,
Alone.
Fought for what's to fight for!
Life!
Found her way with no full understanding of the price to pay.
Still some questions left
Behind.
Still thoughts linger in my mind!
Relief ...can't find a spoken answer
to all that!

So, you see: Here eyes are pure
Yet still that soul too cruel
to let me cry...
Until all illness died.

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I CAN'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM YOU BUT CRUELTY

Lion Heart,
Please, don't tear my fleshly posessions with your sharp teeth,
I know that you're hungry
And I know that the Great Romans want to have a good laugh,
Satisfy their souls feasting on a poor revenge... But on me?
Please, I'm begging you for your throat's sake!
My Bones are too dry for you.

Standing for the right thing
Only for yourselves,
Only for yourselves,
I'm not the kid to believe in your games,
Minding my own...
May God keep my mind and my Soul.
Kept safe forever,
Free to explore,
Fight your own fights
And leave me alone.

Standing for the right thing,
Always for myself,
For myself!
I'm not the kid to believe in your games anymore!
May I be helped, We'll be helped,
Our heart, mind and Soul.
Fight your own fights and leave us alone!

It is people and human beings that can't,
Under the spell of gods that invented their principles
Based on some... Games.

A heart breaking for a lost world to be revealed,
A world of wisdom lost for youth impressed with good **** need...
Holy good ****, holy good ****,
Oh! My holy good ****!
Please, God, rescue us from such a troublesome act_K-not

How dared I be happy
And not awake to a miserable state of mind,
Just like yours?
Why fight for the best of the best
When you can have all toe, sorrow on the fanciest plate served...
Why wish for better days
When we know that suffering can make us so great...!
And wonderful...
Wonderfully hateful, resentful, pitiful... Rad!
How dared I try reach happiness?
To your face: a great scam!
How dared I reach to that perfect state of mind called happiness?
I must Have been out of me mind?
Being all close to knowing the best days in life?
Oh, the horror!
Why, if I can have all your sorrow... and more added to the core?

'May I Thank you for being so all knowing?' said the karma *****...
' She is hurtful and so are we.
After getting Hurt one can only end up hurtful or something too lovely.'
Yes, love is love, and hatred is hatred...
And being hard is sometimes the best solutions for the present existence the one that you can treasure...
Somehow...

For All those who are praying and fighting
In the name of justice and true love
For their place treasured in the world
They're all sorrowful, then happy... Happy then sorrowful...
Maybe I did some mistakes in life
And for those I'm paying...
Or maybe it is just that love we all need... sometimes...?

This must be Gold of the old,
Of the oldies and goldies lives we had
She is this and that!
He is that and this!
Oh, Lord this wonderful experience.

How could I not love the world.
Wasting my existence
As I Have to understand,
I Have to understand all of you.
Your needs, primordial,
Always, your needs...
Your needs!
How could I not love the whole world!

Hacker *****!
Ruining my life with your wit
And knowledge,
Lovely sound of real life expecting you...
Lovely, lovely.
How do you like my share of condescendence?
_Couldn't we simply understand each other? Children wishing for a better world. _

Oh, well! If you couldn't take me as your greatest admirer!

**** for rebirth,
                  Rebirth of humans,
The angels inside
                  Fight for Light.

A family that can't be helped
            saved
it needs not TO BE
A soul against my heart
bio my heart
            against my brain
Shaping life
My mind cruel
Slaughter of the stupid
.choices wrong.
Heat of the burning hell inside.

Let's be merry.

What felt good yesterday
Feels wrong... Upset today
Everybody has their own sprites
I don't know what made you so angered
My dna speaking to me... They're all right in their own ways.

I hear the novel scream,
Good animals of Sven
The war is still descending
With the rain
To piece into the grounds
And splash o to the asphalt that will spill
A Word or two on the cries of a soul
That lived with the intensity of natural tempests

I'll make it happen
My miracle, my need...
Out of what is not such a problem and great a sin to touch.

If you don't understand that hate must win
                                                                ­        and all love must go to hell...

Kind abuses memories
Washing down the pain of your regrets,
Empowering all my abused Angels!

Crystal clean waters
Transformed into wines
Of holiness, holy perfection of God.

Fantasies you will always mock
In your greatness...
What did you suffer to allow yourselves this?

My kind abuses memories
Washing down the pain of your victim's regrets
Empowering all my abused Angels!

Chances were taken and broken were fears,
Superstitions mistaken for Bitter-Sweet tears;
Friends and illusions, well known entities
Locked once and forever in frames of a breeze.
Love taken away, mistrust and shy feels,
Perspectives on all our spiritual peers.

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If angels only muse they must be fallen,
Only a fighter can rise and rise up again...
Incessant wield of swords they can dance in the air
As your preferred
They're sweet and harmless,
Fallen Angels for you to eat
Alive...
Enjoy your cavity.

Creating a god inside me was the perfect start for this battle of the sad spurred sands.

"- Here I am, on Blasphemy Lane where everything's dead."
[They killed it]

Fill the void inside me
With Love and Meaning,
Brilliant Sun travelling
Through space and time,
enlightening the blackest Sea;
This darkness in which we dive seems so empty!
                     ~ Rotation ~
"We're spinning around on our own selves to face a dead god."
[They closed it in]

He learned we're in need for some warmth then started looking for it in every galaxy.

"- This hell is cold..."

"- Do you remember the time you swallowed the serpents of Medusa? What did they say to you? Could you hear their screams while burning down your throat? Did you spread their ashes throughout the sands of your hourglass?..."
[You took in the stars]

"...- There is your boat!"

"- I don't know! I'm too cold."

Do fill the void inside me
With Your Love and Meaning,
Brilliant Sun travelling
Through our space and time,...
enlightening this Black Sea;
The darkness in which we dive looks ... so empty!
                    ~ Rotation ~

"I need to burn like a torch and guide you through this cold night."

They gave us a warm thought and left this cold.
"-Now I can remember:
A kiss in the name of God!"

From: The Hour of the Blue Man by Theodora Oniceanu
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Roses are blue
And violets are red,
Pardon me,
It was the other way around,
Botox lips kisses might be more appreciative!

When I'm not too LoVeLy

- Hello, what can I do you for today?
- Hmm... I guess I programmed you well, my dear!
Well... A machine can take quite everything. What's up for today?
- A lot of Tales for the wonderful!

Existing just like that
With no purpose or meaning
Will make many feel good.

The math, the scent, the tears…
A couple of ears and two eyes that aren’t willing to see
What we’ve prepared for today!
- Hey, sister! Would you see us!?
- Hey, teacher! Could you care about us?!
- Hey brothers, did you ever embrace a cruel song
And let it tare apart your entire soul?

An arbiter of splendour
Was sitting on a bench,
In silence waiting for his times
To come and take away
All pains.

An arbiter for love and your great dance
Eternal!

"I was never good enough for you,
Never doing what you wanted me to do,
I’m quite proud of that right now
Since it kept keeping me away from that pesky debt you had to carry on with!”

Eternal dance of love
And passion for the poor
That’s rich in kind but sorrowful unreachable goals!



Two dots on a sot verticality
Asking for more:
Destroy all the planet, destroy us all!
We got tired of living
What you wouldn’t call
Neither life nor living!

Two dots for a fellow and one for my soul;
Two, one after the other and the third in a row
That sometimes separates two types of worlds.

“- I am feeling a bit sad and disappointed; I must have felt that I was much more and much better than I really am!
- I understand, we all get to feel tired and crushed sometimes. Just don’t let anyone get to you! Many will try to hurt you. Just don’t let them do that again, that’s all!”

A penny for the poor,
Starvation for a fool
Trying to live a life
According to the rules
Of saints!
- You’re not a saint, you girl-dude!
And even if you were! What do you think it’ll serve you for?
We’re all above and helping each-other!
- While you all think it is better that way… the poor way!
- Than what? Our struggle?
- Oh, please! Give me a break! We do not struggle!

Are you much more of a man now?
Oh, pardon me, I was such a fool back then, to trust you
And to love you with all my ‘rotten’ soul!
This cold forgotten soul…

Are you much prouder than before?
Are you successful?
I know I know! I admired your entire carrier!

I should probably **** myself, just now
But I guess that I am too ******* proud
To do so.
Are you still proud of your soul and your wonderful goal?
I know that I am of mine!
I should probably commit suicide.
But not until I get less ashamed with who and what I am;

~ I Mean the loser someone planned to make of me and got to make me be ! ~

Much too carefully!
Much too shamefully!

Oh, my!
The Freak-in’ Carbonite kicked in!
I must get it out on the screen!

After that I’ll try to organize those showers for the angels;
Propeller pins and cosy sins
Already happening
…
why bother?
It’s on them!

Brutally honest with myself:
I find my old journals a bunch of idiotic steam material.
God, I hate myself for not being… stronger!

Yet I must confess:
I love myself more than anything in the world!

“I’ll be the spit in your face if I have to!
she yelled back at him
You traitor!
You must be joking now, dear!
a choir they join both saying:
- Aurevoir, dear!



I prostrate myself
In front of your greatness,
Too grateful for the little I got to accomplish
And give thanks to the Greatest of Lords!
.
“Are you much more of a man now, that you killed them all?”



A missing point that was completely unknown
To the public
Got out meeting people and feeling them all
Just like a believer.

“I need you and I want to be needed too!
I Miss You!"

A moon and a missing point looking for sun-warmth and half a cup of solitude.

Here, I applaud you, mighty heart of blue
Stone hardened with the coldness
Of the cold black gown
The Moon is wearing
For each ocean poured...
Under a playful blue moon
The stars reflect their old wisdom
Their dust speaking through the actions we take
Until the sun will break the record
And explode
Or die, little by little,
Becoming another blue stone
On the  black canopy of inked domes.

For the stone to be deposed in the hands
Of the worthiest girl, the wolf girl
You chased away.

The best of a choice made in life,
Lovely my bees,
They are always well guided,
Always doing the right thing,
Ants are following, their own ways.
Do you remember
A Christ you'll always cherish.
For Christ sake, always!
For the sake of a promised land,
For the sake of your knowledge,
For the sake of a seek and find...

Our bees aren't buzzing
When they are humming,
Our ants aren't patrolling
When they fall asleep.

To leave forever
As your cursing business
Was probably more unfair.

To Leave forever as your love was greater than Hell!

How can that be

Untitled Sun
No title, no rope
Just a lie full of hope!
No phantoms, no touches
Only faint little torches.

Eternal existence
We'd like to achieve
But Sun 's going down
Dark blue with our dream.

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Will remain your burden

The results of such an honour?
The results of the killing and slughter?
The results of what still aches at the brought back of a memory?

... things are easy to take
                                    And some others...
                       even easier.

I love it when you get upset,
That's why I do it!
Loving the whole of this self,
My self induced good health,
Good health!
I love it!
I love it when you get upset
That's why I do this!

This foul nature we keep attaking
With garbage every day
One day taking the garbage
Back to us.

Shouldn't we deal with it?

In my personal graveyard waiting for you
To come and bring me the flowers
I Will gladly enjoy...
What am I supposed to do with them now?
Eat them?

Watching from a distance, seeing that you cared...
May I stay with you forever, be your guiding Angel
Instead of wasting my time here,
In this peaceful boring graveyard
Where there's a lot of green
And blossoms to enjoy...

Maybe I shouldn't eat those flowers anymore...

Let yourself killed...
                                       Be kind always.

Left behind when disrespectful,
Leaving you behind as you couldn't respect me.
Departing...
We should respect each other
If there is anything to respect.
If you can't just find your way
Away from me.
And sirens
Sirens call
Sirens work...
But only God knows,
God sees...
Gods and godesses...
Why not Forgive them?
Can you forgive them?

I came to the conclusion that this problem
I'm to you
Needs to fight.

I was proud with my God!
I was living with my God!
I was... Remembering.

I'd **** you all now,
I thought this would be only fair
But loving, keeping you the way you like to be,
It's sane and safe. Amazing you want me to be,
The kind of a great annoying mystery
To haunt you still...
A memory you'll need, one Day...
Enjoy this wonderful silence.

I struggle to be a nice girl: the worst choice of my life,
Man I am not good with all this life,
Working like a fool, join the 'army of the great for my money,
God... I just had to make it harder for myself!
Here, I am again complaining.

Hard to appreciate everything I have,
Easy ways are always leading one to hard
Times of imprisonment...

Now what my image happened with this soul of mine?
And what my image happens with this shell of mine...
Caring, not caring... training for that better life!

Down the streets people still walk and live and talk
And crave for their more.
Up, in the bed, on their chairs and those grounds
They have chosen,
Chosen each soul...
_ Careful to not upset (too much) your own saviour _
People still live...
A pleasant touch of ignorance: bliss for my impotence to **** them all
And sentence them to heaven, once and for all.

While you expect me to do what you want,
I expect you to do what I want
And here we stand. Each wishing to do, for others to do
A bunch of doers.

Killing my bacteria ships,
Becoming the whole world!
No _ thanks to Darwin...?

Even the old want young ******* to **** with
One way or another they'll for them to **** with.
Desires, burning, churning their prides!
Finding their ways so divine of... Loving us!

Roman, you threw me to the serpents this time!
I hate you!
Why did you have to do that?

This is getting obsessive...
I'm sure you don't want to be forgotten but this?

Really... I hate you!