I fear that what I look forward to may never come back--
that he's dancing with the dust I'm choking on.

I have so much to say
but
with no voice. . . .

My love was so bright
So alive
I gave you everything I had
And got left in return

Your absence was so heavy
I thought it might **** me
But I survived
Oh boy, how I wish I hadn't

You call me six months later
I answer
I always answer to you

Two hours later and i'm sitting in your driveway
Wondering why I bothered to show up
I go into your house, and there you are

The six months of healing, gone
My walls tore down again
My heart breaking into a million pieces again
And I haven't even heard you speak yet

That night
A magical night
Full of kisses and closed doors

I missed you so much
God, how I missed you

I go home
I go to sleep, happy for the first time
And when I wake up
You are not there beside me

I realize now it was only a game
An act of boredom
You toyed with my feelings again

And I realize
I still love you

The love never went away
Only grew stronger in your absence
And now
My love is broken

I have loved him
for far too long
Daily meets
and empty sheets
Will haunt me forever

I have loved him
for far too long
Days turned to weeks
weeks turned to months
And somehow after two years
i'm still waiting

We always joked with each other
"don't talk to me"
and then we'd laugh
I don't know about you
but I stopped laughing two years ago

I have loved him
for far too long
I've been in love with the same boy for four years now
I just wish he knew

In heartfelt
songs sung

Coming together
or
Tearing apart

Falling in love
or
Breaking up.