"iknow" poems
Never Had iThought
Id Actually Be Or Fall inlove.
A Mutual Desire
Something iFeel And People
Dont Call Me insane
Cause iTs A Human Being
Not A Chemical
Substance.
iRealistically Feel, How iKnow
iTs Real.
He's Better Than Drugs
A Fullfilling
Natural Stimulant dose
My Happiness my
everything, 1st love of my life
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 8:18 PM UTC
iWanna Run Away
For Bad.
iM Sad And iFeel Hopeless
The Only Thing That iFeel iCan Truly Feel Worth iT
is Dope.
iWanna Take A Hit.
iKnow il Feel Happy
Just if iGet Lit
iWanna Twist Just One last Time
Yes A Relapse
Thatll il risk
iKnow The Consequences
But this is it
iKnow il lose Everything once again but idk iF iHave Enough Heart
iLove, But Not Like iUsed to
This substance is
Powerful
Itll Take over
Its sour
iWanna use
And im getting closer to the point were i dont care if i lose...
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC
I'm Sorry Baby
Yes, Those who Truly Love would never lie.
But I Felt The Need To
iKnow The Truth To My Relapse
Will hurt you
and I'd probably
lose you.
So I decided it was best to
fool you
cause I want us to be forever,
I adore you!
Then Why Don't I just be honest?
Because I can't.
You'll Walk out the minute I tell you I had it again in my hands.
Youv Helped Me So much
&
Do the impossible to keep me out of reach
Take Most Of Your time to focus on me.
To see what I need.
You give me everything.
Addiction is a very hard thing
You Probably think I find it
So Easy to Say false things carelessly .
Underneath were the rightful things are seeked
I'm Really hurting and beating my self up with what I'm doing
The Drug Puts up a false front
Just to keep me consuming.
I Don't Want to lie
But I know the truth will make you Say goodbye.
Hope you understand
That it's not me who's dishonest
It's the drug that takes controll or Temptation that blind folds
To get me where it
Wants me.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 4:01 AM UTC
I know who you are, skip the introduction...
Last night was so innocent, till you came and interrrrrupted!
Talking to my ignorance, in this place all the time i feel stupid.
You say your such a nightmare ya whatever...
I wake up with my demon there, iknow his name is pleasure.
They praise the same God i do so what's different?
Im safe on this side of purity they use trojan.
Nov 17, 2013
Nov 17, 2013 at 1:40 PM UTC
my fingertips itch
for something iknow
i'm not supposed to want
to have.
it's within my grasp,
i can feel my veins
rising to the surface of my skin
because my body wants
what my brain
won't allow it.
blood boils better under pressure
and i can't come up for air soon enough.
do as i say
not as i do.
Apr 30, 2011
Apr 30, 2011 at 12:54 PM UTC
the clouds just hung there like traitors. No movement. The numbers won’t add up. We’re divided. No release. Lights ricochet against the water like wounds. Cut my heart out & paste it to the cardboard cutout i’ve been reduced to. No movement. Decorate it with glitter- the expensive kind like you like. i have no eyes. The clouds just hang there but still they seem to manage change. Am i just the same? is that a question or a creative form of denial? Can you deal with this?
Plot your next move. You are the chess player & i’m the queen.
But you’ll never really get me.
There is no real ending. Time has lost her breath. Maybe i don’t know me. Running in place but i’m on empty. No rules to our love. No designated direction. No reasons. i’m the champion of failure, pushing my own face down in the mud. I’m the maker of destruction enjoying every last bit. Wishing lives came equipped with erasers. Happy being sad. (i will not call you. i will not give in.) Wishing on half-broken street lamps. i always knew you could never mend a broken heart so why do i keep trying. That’s not a question. it’s emptiness, everything.
i am my own prisoner. i know i know IKNOW.
Taken from "I Killed Alice in Wonderland" by Brixton Bell. © All Rights Reserved.
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 2:43 PM UTC
iSmile, iLaugh, iHug
Deep Within Me its All an Act.
iFroun, iScream, iCry
Deep Within Me iTs What iFeel
Why Do iFeel Empty?
They Tell Me iHave Everything
A Family, Wealth, Support
iKnow iKnow iKnow
They Say What More?
Idont Know, iDont Feel Alive
iFeel Souless, No interest, lifeless
What Do iWant? What Are
My Needs? To fullfill these Depression Thats deepining .
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 4:09 AM UTC
iFeel Guilty When iBuy This **** Now.
Im ******* up, im Truly Sorry
To All My loved ones
Who im letting down again. And instead of Stopping
The minute it gets to me?
Im Thinking
Of how getting my next fix.
iTs Disappointing
Iknow, but iLove iT!
Sep 22, 2014
Sep 22, 2014 at 9:28 PM UTC
Ive Been in 3 Different Residential
Rehabs & 5 Outpatients.
Sadly, Neither Have Worked Because
iM Out Here Doing The Same Thing.
Finding How To Get
A Dope Fix.
iDont Want To Go back
Hate the past experiences but iknow
iNeed iT Urgently.
Should be recommended Mandatory
iNeed Major help before
IEnd up losing my self again
Im in the middle. Before i get
Stuck once again.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 3:13 PM UTC
When iDont Seek iT
iT Seeks Me
Now That iDont Want iT
iT Finds Ways
Finds Ways To Make iTs Way
To Convince Me
To Say Yes Once Again
But im Strong
iKnow iM Not, But if i Try To believe
Maybe itl bleed through
That i Can Beat iT.
Sobriety
Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 3:23 AM UTC
i Genuinely Just Cant Cope
With Recovery
iTurn into This Tearful pathetic
Mess and get more
depressed.
Krazie How One Thing
Can Change Your llife Forever
iTs Like iKnow All The Right
Things to do
To maintain sober
Ijust cant apply them To myself
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 3:50 PM UTC
This Feeling iS So Amazing.
Youll LOVE IT
More Like Fall inlove and Become Sick Dope Sprung,
iKnow iDid.
Fell For iTs Blinded Tricks So Easily
iTll Greet You And Come To You Nice And Sweetly
A Rush
The Feel As iF You Just Accomplished More Than
100 Things At Once.
A Sunshine Glow
Euphoric Flow
Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 10:59 AM UTC
A queer and epicure
A problematic diet
A teenage workout
I had to go to the prison bar
Lcked out my cell
Push ups on the go
With the trust in my heart
There was despair
I was raised to go
Home
Stay at home
Different shades
Take it from here
Better believe
You never stay same similarly
Indeed there's a reassurance
iknow
Somthing in your mind
Hard ot get, hard to figure out
SOmething bothering you
Man the racism isn't
There
It's the hate
THe sympathy and liberty
With the justice of a sullen symbol
Of sudden death
Of sombre nation
With the fearlessness
With the challenge of scale and bellicose resistance
I better work and stomp out the hate
THat I have
I was little I wanted to stay at the home
Away from the cigarettes that close ones ask for
If you knew me my face
Even the Devil wouldn't recognize
Trust me a face in the
Neu ce fleur
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 4:36 PM UTC
The Struggle Of
Being Dependent On A Substance.
Especially Stimulating Wise
Is So Difficult
My Negative Emotions Are What
Lead me to wanting to
Go and use.
To Get Away Relive
My Weaken Mind.
By Taking The Stress worries racing
Thoughts away
Dissapering Up in smoke
The Sad Feeling,
Every Time iFeel Blue
A Reminder Pops Up remembering
iHave A Cure to turn to.
Numbs Me All Completely
Since im addicted, idont get that first happy feeling, like idid in
The Beginning.
Makes All my pain and misery leave
Yes iknow, temporarily
As iConsume, its consuming
My Natural Happiness Permanently.
Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 3:42 PM UTC
Iknow ilove iappreciate
What I am
When I'm with you
What I see
When your around
What I eat
When you cook for us
What we can afford
When you go work your long days
What a relief I feel
When you come home
What a joy it is
When you run wild with our son
What a drain it can be
When you do so much but have to do a lil more
What a pain it can be
When your in such high demand
What a morning becomes
When you crash into me
What burdens we over come
When you plan and get the ball rolling
What a stronger man I am
When you tell me I can do it
What a home you make for us
When you do what you do
What my life would be like
I wouldn't know with out you
Oct 22, 2012
Oct 22, 2012 at 8:19 PM UTC
We never passed eachother
when we wished we should have.
But then one day we will iknow,
against our will...
Dongaala
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 3:17 AM UTC
How I feel for you.
My love for you was broken like the shattered mirror I drew on paper with my reflection was etched in its pieces. My love for you is hiding in the corner because my brain knows better than to let my heart back in my chest. My heart is the broken mirror as I draw on paper. My reflection girl who only wants to love when she can't even love herself.
How I feel for you.
My love for you it's like a beautiful meadow of roses yet I only get pricked by your thorns as I run through naively thinking the beauty of my love for you was two sided.
My love with....for you was only reciprocated when it fit you best because I loved you all the time. Every time we talked I let my heart creep back into my chest and let my brain take a break. Silly me? But you love me when you were alone when youneeded someone to be there for you and I have always been that person to be there for you. And I will always be the person who is here for you because I know my love is broken mirrors on paper and though my love is a meadow full of thorns, I know my love for you will always grow like the pretty buds at the top of the stem as it digs deeper into my skin, I know that in love with you I will always get to see a new reflection of me good or bad. Broken but whole.
My love for you warms and breaks my heart and I would go through it a thousand times just see your smile just to be there for you when you needed me just save you from being LONELY.BECAUSE I love you And for me right now the hope you may be loving me back is enough to get me through the hellish day is all I need.
One day someone will love me the same. Someone will have a love for me so strong so influenced by infactuation and the time spent together but for I will notice because iknow that struggle and for you I'll be gone....
Aug 13, 2015
Aug 13, 2015 at 8:26 PM UTC
I love you with all my heart
Because no one else makes it beat fast
You smile melts my courage
And your voice fills me with laughter always
I'm like a deer caught in your trap
And though like the stars I can't see you high up
But iknow you're always there
This I know you've heard before
But mine is a genuine heart of gold
Because though like a fool I lose power to reason around you
I know I can't manage to lose you
Jan 22, 2017
Jan 22, 2017 at 1:33 PM UTC
Love?
What is Love?
I'm not talking about
What she wears Above
Low cut shirts
And tight fitted jeans.
Just to use what's In-between
But what she says.
Listen
Dream
Believe
But it's how we show it
Because Satisfaction
Is always defined,
by a persons Actions
Not two people that have
Vaine Tendancies
Two people that have,
reason to Believe
The people who show no
iNtelligence
iKnow
iPads
iDontTouch
"I love you soo much" Click
"Let's see what you're wearing above" Click
A couple with
Intelligence
Knowledge
Great Conversation
So we both have more,
to talk about.
Instaead of...
What are you doing tomorrow?
Or...
How our day went
Because we all have to borrow,
we're all in debt for the time
In our lives.
And that - First time smile-
Where cheeks are turned,
hearts are burned
With the same response
whispers
"It took you a while"
It takes the right person
To take just a while
To see if the smiles aren't,
fake to see if they don't
Shatter and Break
A kiss?
A kiss is the biggest,
human weakness.
It means I'm defeated
It means I'm the weakest,
human being.
Because it has more meaning
Of the greatness
Of just locking lips?
(With You)
Do you see, what I'm Seeing?
See because we're Free
And not just
Free
As in
Free?
But we have Free
Reason to Speak
And it gives us Free
Reason to...
Learn
And
Teach
Words like
Baby
Beautiful
I Love You
Are chucked into the wild
And used soo freely
Would make a person melt
Inside
The feelings are warm.
They feel soo familiar
To me
So be careful how they're used,
because the words also ****
Are they Free now?
With jewels, clothes, and
materialistic things don't
Bring the Love she brings to me.
"I've been Broke(n) all my life"
Honest(ly)
All the points
Point you in the right direction
For Success to Succeed
This is Reality
Think Positively
Listen...
Dream...
Believe...
Beauty
miles
Feb 15, 2014
Feb 15, 2014 at 5:38 PM UTC
*Within the glowing
warmth Of twilight fires
I know familiar and comforting
the gentle touch of your fingertips
tingling like tiny electrical pulses
trickling to my most wanton senses.
desire and need for you
replaceing dreamlike contentment.
I know the toutch of your lips on mine
the feel of your hair falling on my skin
the warmth of your breath as it mingles
with my own At a time when even our
lifeblood flows as one.
I know the feeling of softness
that can be transfered into a raging torrent
as my fingers touch your skin
the need of you burning like
a firebrand as I must submit
my soul to for a moment of
your comforts.
Iknow the taste of you
comingled like tropical
fruits of passion that you
feed to me slowly as they are soaked
in the sweetest of the summer wine.
I savour each of your flavours
like my last meal In my mortal life
I know the emptiness
as you take all my passions
and drain the last of them into you
as I suffer the death of contentment
all my fires quenched
by the moisture of our passion.
I know these moments are ours
I know they exist outside
the realms of dreams.
I know that I find inside them
the power I need to tread
the weary footpath
of life's journey*
Sep 4, 2015
Sep 4, 2015 at 4:37 PM UTC