Appologize poems on Hello Poetry

Phil Midnight Feb 2011

Welcome to my world.
I appologize,
It's crumbling down,
Before my eyes.
Another year passes,
But I'm still barely scraping by.
And now I'm forced to watch the candle drown,
Before I can let out a cry.

Life is nothing,
Without love so real.
Can you taste that sweet venom on my tongue.
What you hold inside,
Of your fragile life,
Is misery.
Chew all that you bite off,
It pleases me.
I envy tasting,
The time we're wasting.

How can I let you die?
Your life is in my hands.
I can't just watch you die.
But I have to run away.
There's some things that I can't face.

Death means nothing,
Without love so real.
Can you taste that venom from my tongue?
We all die.
We all say goodbye,
To the ones we love.

How can I let you die?
Your life is in my hands.
I can't just watch you die.
But I have to run away.
There's some things that I can't face.

I'll keep you in my heart.
Never out of sight.
(There's some things that I can't face.)
I'll never watch you crawl,
Down into the night.
(There's some things that I can't face.)

Why can't I let go of my past?
I walked with one foot in the cemetary.
Gray skies shadow every grove.
I try,
Because I can't let you free from your fate.
Free from your faith.
Free from your hate,
Free from your chains.

I'll keep you in my heart.
Never out of sight.
(There's some things that I can't face.)
I'll never watch you crawl,
Down into the night.
(There's some things that I can't face.)

Welcome to my world.
I appologize it's crumbling down,
Before my eyes.
Before my eyes.

This song is a difficult one for me. The coward who acted on lust with my ex wife was once my best friend. I wrote this when his father passed away from cancer some years back. I've done all I can to find another meaning behind it for myself, and I'm happy to report that it has not been a futile effort. Again...Thank you Matt Storm for your incredible contributions.

Tori Jurdanus Apr 2012

*** & Coke

I remember how warm the look in your eyes used to be.
You see, I play those moments back in my mind,
Time after time.
A little light just for me.

I remember how safe I felt whenever you held me close.
That strength you swore would stay for any length of time.
You promised you'd always be mine.

I remember how your voice used to sound.
Your song would make my heart pound, but now?
I'm so damaged I'm numb.

And you are too but by *** and coke
And not a word is spoken between us because now,

You lie here.
In my arms.
Fading fast.

While I try to fend of the pain the morning is bound to bring back to you again
And pray it migh last.

But the look in your eye is so distant.

The warmth,
The heat is gone.
Cold feet.

Your hands are shaking as you ask if it's really me there.

You don't even recognize me.

So, why do I care?

You appologize, but the diction is slurred.
The meaning is blurred.
I can't breathe near you.

Still, I can't bring myself to leave you.

So, I kiss your cheek and tell you that I know.
I also know that yo won' remember a confession of love to me,
Your "saving grace sent from above," so I pretend not to hear.

I hold back a tear, tuck you in bed.
And remember the things that I should have said.

Brandon Barnett Apr 2012

LETTER IN A BOTTLE

if I ever told you I love you then
I appologize for what I said it's
better to have the truth now then
to have false security instead of
what you really want and
if I told you I cared then I'm sorry it
really wasn't what I intended and
if I could take it all back I
think I would leave it just the same I
think I like the way it turned out the
way we always end up together and
if you think I lied to you then
i'm sorry you believed me when
I must have said I love you and
I'm sorry you thought I felt beyond
the kisses I
really didn't ever mean to let you feel that
what you found in my touch was real but
you dove in too quick to realize and then you
tried to explain lust
I don't understand what you thought you
made exist in me and
I'm very sorry you thought I cared and
I appologize for what I must have said when
you thought I meant I loved you

Hopeless Wonderland Feb 2015

Misfits

Rereading conversations
Remembering the past
You love him
You hate to say it
I'm your metaphorical God
You're depressed
You want to go home
You want to leave the town
You already left
You have to come back
Life is rough
Living as a misfit
No one will understand
Understand your depression
Unless they have felt it
Sadness for no reason
Feeling like a freak
Like a misfit
Because of the way you feel
Yet you have to appologize
For the things they did
They need to apologize to you
For being an ignerent ****
Expecting you to be happy
When all you want to do is cry
You thought you left this town
Tear soaked bed
Makeup smuged pillows
Terrible memories
Terrible mistakes
Terrible guilt
You thought you left it all behind
But you didn't
You have to be the stronger person
Even though you're
Breaking at the seams
You aren't apologizing anymore
For their ignorance
They won't understand
Just wanting to sleep
Cry
Cut
Tear the skin off of their body
The awkwardness
The innocent watching
You hate yourself
And your feelings
You want to go back to where you came from
Leave this town
Leave it a mystery if your coming back
Ever
Or never
You're still stuck
With the tear soaked bed
And makeup smuged pillows
You don't know if you can handle it
I'm here
I'm going to help you
Help you through those terrible nights
That, that I promise you will happen

This is a conversation between my best friend and I. It was sad how poetic the conversation was.

#suicide #depression #tears #bed #cut #saveme #pillows

Ky Blackstar Jul 2014

Secrets kept by dreams

I talk in my sleep
Spilling secrets i cannot bare to keep
In the morning my lips are shut, while the rest of me comes undone
My thoughts overflow into my lungs, making it hard to breath
I do not do it because i want to
I do not have control
Though i feel i must appologize because i know your heart takes a toll

#dream #sleep #thoughts #lips #sorry #secrets #morning #bare #appologies

Kayla May 2014

Goodbye poem

Sometimes I want to appologize for all the breaths I take that she can't.
The sympathetic "it will get betters" always met by a blank stare and a disembodied voice screaming from somewhere deep in the room crying out WHEN?

Do you ever think late at night that this can't be what God had instore for us.
If so then what did her death teach us?

That sorrowcomes wrapped in a beautiful, bright box. Dancing haphazardly on the heart strings of everyone it entrances, and opens like Pandora's box engulfing every single thing in it's wake. Leaving tear drops the size of oceans and broken dreams so sharp and jagged you could cut a smile across the plaster face of grief and SPIT out venomously the words **"I'm fine."

#god #sadness #death #sorrow #grief #sorry #trending #trend

Liz Jan 2017

Slower

I cannot explain
The dullness that has invaded
My tired brain.
I don't know why
I don't want to try
To do the things
I know I should.

I can't be bothered
With questions about
The future
About the world around me
Because finding the answers
Requires much more energy
Than I have to offer.

How do I learn
How do I grow
With this incessant
Low hum
Ringing throughout my body?
There's no ignoring it.

I'm a slave
To my unnecessary pain.
And I hate being too weak
Too busy
Too apathetic
To fight this depression.

All I can do is laugh
And keep pushing,
Hoping that one day
I will wake up with the power
To do something about
The sadness that keeps me
From everything I have yet to reach.

For now,
I'm so sorry
That my anxiety
And my sadness
Make me stagnant
In the face of truth.

I'm so sorry
That I feel the need to
Appologize for the way I am.
But the way I am
Is not the way I want to be.

Devon Aug 2013

You

I think of you each night
How silly of me
To breath deeply in the memories
Enough to get me high
And as I float in disbelief
I crash in to my wonderwall
Did you hope that I would crash?
Did you know that I would burn?
With want and need
And with the prideful shame
Of knowing I could make you feel
Did you know each time I read your words
I sit down just to breath
To ease away the feelings
That want to ruin our cotton flirtation
But cotton burns
And i'm setting it on fire
With my strategy of crash and burn
Because I will wish away the pain of time
And I will cry for our circumstance
But I will never appologize for wanting you

Karijinbba Aug 2019

Under water

I am underwater how do I chase?

Please forgive my blockings being unfollowed saddens me
I am only human make mistakes

Trying to understand your poetry without seeing your face
as the mirrors fogs I pushed to defog and unmask

I am a realist in attitude
vission depiction is hard to do

seeing across the cyber space cold computer screen with clarity is exausting however fun

I guess I lost it forgive me
what I searched for desperatly
to find and hungrily devour
has found me instead

the final blow was executed
bittersweet the object of my
obsession has withdrown
a sacred tree tored in half

I remain changed wiser
a crying sorrowful nymph
bent fallen in this battlefield arena
my world in shambles remains
my sacred tree unreachable is

I struggle to breath as
I come up for a little fresh air
and a mighty hand pushes
me down
down under water again
and again

I appologize have mercy on my soul beloved loyal reader how much more wiser thou art

I hope whats on the other side is better than on this mirrored life of mine.

understand me please I pleed
that I may gather strenght
before I go hence and be no more
~~~~~~~~~~~~
By: Karijinbbs

It is only human to err and make mistakes and all we can do is learn and bless our beloved runners escapist no matter the pain.

#sorrow #shambles #breath #underwater

Jacob Dexter Coffey Nov 2013

Listen.

listen.

i can’t tell you how to live,
how to care and/ or give,
or say its fair,
that you don’t share
time on anyone but yourself
you live life on a shelf,
i’m bound to break
trusting you was a mistake
from every time you fake
you put it all at stake
you cannot compensate
your actions deviate
beyond the paved road
making otbers carry the load
your huge ego
you push them below
won’t let them go
you think you put on a show
you mock the cleaning crew
they claim that you’ll rue
the day you wreck them
reject them
neglect them
they bide their hate
to condemn your fate
you will be sent underground
to not be found
not a sound
even a choice of your own accord
not one word
can appologize
or synthesize
forgiveness
from carelessness
you’re destined to a volatile state
i have spoken your fate

--JacobDexterCoffey--

Brandon K Stephenson Apr 2015

"Razors In The Wind"

These words, they poured from your eyes...
I couldn't take back the lies, i couldnt appologize…
These unspoken feelings you held  inside
  Fell silently to the ground, as  you cried...

This pain, It streams down your face...
All the hurt your heart couldn't erase…
I hang my head, feeling the shame...
  I hate knowing that I made you feel this way...

All of the emotion and all of the scars...
Every goodbye and every sharp remark...
Like razors in the wind...
Cutting every last heart-string you held within…

Now I see the sorrow your eyes shed...
Now I see the words you left unsaid...
Now I truly understand this mess...
Tears are the words the heart can't express…

A little handfull of some "Sarah Inspiration" and and a dash of "Word-Smithing."

#heart #tears #emotion #feeling #wprds

Pretty girl May 2018

Say

I live in a state where the girls are not gay but the culture is
Where my boy only tells you he loves you when it's convenient
When your i love you's are only true if they come with the gift of your body

I live someplace where the women do not bloom often
The girls have guilty minds from putting dainty things on display while men find joy in plucking them but we do not tell dad
That nice man is giving girl attention
She asks her self if this is love

Little girls are too little and too big too
They tell you let your mind grow but dont let your bodies move
Girls who are tight with mature minds are for men who lack depth
Who have bottle caps for heads cause there's no water room

Shave your ***** cause he wants you too
Plus your legs cause he wants those smooth
Say "please" and "thank you" Pretty girls gotta be polite
Say "I'm sorry." cause existing upsets the balance of their breathing

If you woulda been sweeter you coulda saved yourslef another breakdown
"But i love him." say
"Im sorry
Sorry.
Sorry!
sorry..."

I appologize.

Delton Peele Jun 30

Supplication

My tears shall never answer my please ....
That ,which I want
Shall always remain
Penultimate reason
I fall to my knees.....
Love .........
Forgive me ......
I know not why I do these things .
.............
I appologize that's a lie .....
I do .......
In sin I know also
I try not to ...........give in ......
I know you still love me even though I do ......
Forgive me .......
My love if I could ask of thee ..
Let me speak directly to her heart...........
All geese and geeseings disapate...
Loose any memory of Her....
Then loose your mind and continue life in misery
Get in line for your torture enternaly and know where you go there is no outcome
Your existence will only be known by you ........
Forever erased from our memory.....
.......
And to you the one who .......
Captivates me ......
Allocate me your trust and love...
I pray thee
My love I shall endure what ever need be
to show you my love only grows continually
I will always be the one who will always keep you before me
Your love is my world .....
And I love living to love you......
You are so delicate with your affections
My fear is when you do fall in love with me ........
My tears of joy would never end .........

Thank you my King
For everything I love you always in all ways ......
And especially for letting me speak to her heart directly

Delton Peele Dec 2020

Lay off

Aye wait hold up
Can i get
A red hot second
Flash freeze my
Life
Let me defragment
Gimmy a ****** filter so
I can see things
From your
Peeps
Collective perspective
Stop!!!!!
I absoloutely
Object.
Hey hell no
Seriously !
Youre using that
Microwave way too much!
So what if it
Saves you time
Cant you see?
Its shortening
Your life!
And you tellin me
Im different
I dont fit right?
Maybe its wrong of me
To tell you sorry
My spirit is to strong
You can **** me
You just cant
Break me
Make me mesh
The way you want me
Let me......
If you will
If you have any will left of your own...
Elaborate or expand on my apologies first off i will not force you in like manner the way you do.
I will only suggest you
Recompense the same respect.
I
As a
Courtesy have freely given
You.
Please look into my eyes
When I say
Im sorry ?
I mean
Im sorry
But
I cannot
Appologize
Maybe for my spelling .
Thats humor
Its ok you dont
Have to
Laugh....
Your suppression of you
Has left you cynical
And detached from anything
You label not critical
Where
Im wondering
Will
This way of thinking
Be
Upon
Your Day
Of reckoning?
Will it bring you comforting
Knowing
You have been so very
Successful
In your training
So much so
No ones standing
Bedside wailing?
Thats food for thought
Thats all
Im just saying
If you are
Honestly
Worried about me
I appreciate those feelings
Same wave
length?
Were not even
On the same spectrum
In truth
You lie
Pervert truth
Without need
Im not
Abnormal
Or an
Anomaly
There are plenty of
Me
Out there somewhere
And
These battles
Ive fought
have not
Given satisfaction
Ive become aggravated
With condescending
Questioning
With the higher audible
And awe smilling
Maybe
Im an integeral gear
Within
A custom
Environment sent back from the future
To establish hope
To the emaciated
Forged without feelings
To react and follow
Hirelings
Submissively.
Like drones
Not me
Sorry
I........
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