Yule - Hello Poetry

Yule Oct 2018

between

stuck between
the realms of the past
and
hopefulness for the future

180618; 5:19 PM

{nj.b}

#hope #life #destiny #fate #spaces #time #njb

Yule Sep 2018

Dormant

Maybe some things that can't be,
the heart puts into rest
till it can be reawaken again
Like a volcano, waiting for its time

— bidding its time

{nj.b}

#healing #heart #feelings #love #unaswered #unrequited #njb

Yule Aug 2018

Last

I consider him as "my last"
But I know it can be changed
It won't happen

Rather, In my heart
He is someone that will last

180723; 4:53 AM

{nj.b}

#last #love #sad #heart #njb #helloji

Yule Aug 2018

la douleur exquise

that smile of yours
was the start of it all
it caused war zones
down my chest
up to my head

how beautiful you are
could I compare?
a thousand diamonds
laid out up there

a simple glimmer of your eyes
with the swift gesture of your hand
you swept me off my feet

you, turned into my world
I’m a satellite
orbiting around a planet called ‘you’
I will look out for you
through the ends of time
till the last bits of flames
the sun can ought to fume;
to the brim
till my heart can no longer take it

for you, my eyes formed rivers
turn into the clouds
I look up high
your eyes dark as the night sky
You shine the brightest
A star I ought to reach
And down low, I turn
I fell
along the teardrops of my heart
for you, my heart belongs, my dearest

for you have taught me what is more
to be in love
‘thank you’
you not only thought me of the word
but the meaning
to the roots so deep

but love can be cruel
more when you have to be sorry

I just want to pull you close to mine
to stand side by side
without having to think
of where I stand in line

— I have accepted it.

la douleur exquise
(n.) the exquisite pain of wanting someone you know you can never have.

180611; 5:47 AM

{nj.b}

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180814 | darling, it's been 2 years since I've met you up close. I will always cherish that moment with you. ♡

//

This is a weird conclusion to it all, but after all the heart has beaten to, one must let go of the things that meant the world to them.

11:11 PM | l.jh, my love. my world, you deserve all the happiness and to roam free to spread your wings as you already do. so must that I let you go. mostly, from my faith that it will be the two of us in the end.

this once, I won't be ashamed to admit. I do love you, truly. but I am also doing this for me to /also spread free.

I still love you, each passing day. but I am growing more to love you as I was supposed to; as an admirer, and I know you love me too dearly. As we coexist with one another, a diamond to a carat; we are one of a kind. We still are, and will shine forevermore.

I'll keep looking after you for you have lifted me up and took a long wild journey with you.

I'll be your hero, as you told me I am. Please look out for the world as it has once been you and me. — elle

~

"I have learned to love a star like him in a way I'm supposed to in the first place— love him in a safe distance.

I forgot the very essence of that but now I know."

#unrequited #love #longing #far #hurt #njb #helloji

Yule Aug 2018

a song of a dead siren

let me sing you a song
of a mermaid that once passed
can you not hear it
wailing in the distance?
by the raging seas
that was once calm waters
even after its last breath
the spirits of the waters it once swam on
still lingers in the oceans so deep
can my voice haunt you in your sleep?
even then listen to its calling
its sorrowful melody
how it’s missing the land
it never once kissed
remember the tune
so when you’re in need of company
come look up the moon
as it once became the light
of a lonely siren I came to be
this is how I miss you every night
I was always calling your name
but never heard by thee
as I have always been pleading
under the deep blue sea
'please remember me till you sleep'

This is for the love that cannot be. | 180402; 5:49 am

{nj.b}

#mermaid #sea #moon #miss #love #song #night #longing #njb #helloji

Yule Aug 2018

Stars Align

'You are my star, but we all reach that point in life that we no longer wish into one.'

Moving forward to a year, I trace upon the letter I wrote for you.

With the smile on my face, I look up the night sky. I am reminded of how your eyes shine brightly at the scene, and the mole beneath your eye resembles so much of the dots laid up high.

I let out a big sigh. How different it is by this time...

I realized now that we are two of the same; two bright stars. Glowing and burning embers on their own.

We're both coexisting to shine, though we cannot meet for one of us fell for the other too deep already.

A falling star, I cried to you; a shooting star.

How can our stars align? Our paths and distance don’t comply. Far and far across galaxies. You blinded me by that sight. My light cannot compare to yours.

My dearest, you shot too high up the skies to live on your dreams.

And mine just remained being one.

2018.

{nj.b}

#stars #night #universe #fate #destiny #wish #unrequited #love #njb #helloji

Yule Aug 2018

Come Back

I just feel so homesick all the time, whenever you're not here with me. I just count on the days on the ticking of the clock. Till you come by the doorstep, back home to me.

— waiting for a moment that will never happen

You're my Home

{nj.b}

#home #far #hope #love #unrequited #njb #helloji