I fought my fear
And it taught me
How to be
Brave

Same ocean
Flows within
In your heart
And mine
Never ending
Feeling of love
Lives within

It’s all
Love only
Yours and mine

Even in your anger
I see the lull

In your
Frustration
I sense felicity

In your Ego
I see the humility

In your selfishness
I see the generosity

In your doubt
I feel the trust

In your fear
I see the hidden bravery

In your detachment
I am attached
I see every
Aspect of you
I feel every
Layer of you

The way you make
Me feel
As if
My heart
Explodes
Like
A Big Bang
No one can
Do this to me
But you
&
Your love
We Carry
The same ocean
Of love within
No matter
How many
Hurricanes
Come
Along
Ocean
Of love
Within
Yours and mine
Remains
Unchanged
Peaceful
And
In this stillness

©️Sobbingsoul

This sickness?

Being yelled at for throwing tantrums
That were really panic attacks

Beating yourself, hurting yourself
Because you made a mistake

Being confused that no one had hurt you
But you were always in pain

Being told to just calm down
And to stop overreacting

Being unsure if you want to be better
Because maybe it’s just your personality

Not trusting yourself anymore
Because there’s medication in your head

Wanting to feel numb
Because inside everything hurts

Wanting to get high
Because inside you feel numb

Always wondering if you’re okay
And knowing the answer is probably “no”

So if you want to know
What it is that ails me
This is it
This is what I’m fighting