I was lonely when winter comes
Through my eyes, everything was dull
When there’s no one by my side
When ice river was my blood.

But you’ve changed everything
You,the sun breaking the ice in me
Are all I need.
You make me happy,
happier than ever.
You open a window in my soul
Your chest is my pillow
Your arms hold me tight ,
keep me warm
In cold winter days.
I love you,I need you
Like sunflowers need sun.
So thank you,
my love.

the hardest part about meeting you was saying goodbye,
but i promise you that these tears will soon dry;
because i know someday we'll meet again,
when the spring breeze blows;
when the winter wind comes to an end.

What if I told you I hold demons inside?

What if I told you about the tears I hide?

What if I told you about every time I lied?

What if I told you my dreams of suicide?

What if I told you I wear a mask on the outside?

What if I told you in myself I confide?

What if I told you about all the times of happiness I was denied?

A friend asked me
how to be a writer.
I wanted to say,
lock yourself in a room,
scream until you have
a poem and no voice.
Open your veins and bleed
until you know that your bones
are pure words and sorrow.
Act as if you slit your own throat
and all you can bleed
are your own regrets
and all of the darkness
you boxed up for inspiration.
Write your mom a letter,
tell her you're leaving
and you won't be back for awhile
Because being a writer is traveling
through all seven layers of Hell
and denying anything is wrong.
Forget loving yourself
when all you have is a pen and paper
fused to your wrist
and Jesus is tapping at your skull
saying turn back now.
Warn the neighbors that if they smell burning
It's just your soul
clawing at the front door trying to get in.
Learn how to be alone.
Learn how to lose everything you have
in order to feel release,
learn how to only feel deceased
from now on.
A friend asked me
how to be a writer.
All I said was
don't

If the birds start singing just for you,
       & the moon seems dancing & along with you,                                        *○ '
                                                             *  
If the leaves start clapping on your ridiculous dance,                             ♤
           & the angels have appeard near the moon & light their flashes upon you to capture your image,          ☆

If the flowers blossom just for you,  
          & the mirror showing you the most beautiful,                                         *

If you are smiling eternally for no reason,
.....then congratulations dear!!!!
        You are the happiest person!!!!
                             :-)

One day I'll spread out my hands to get you in my arms ...
One day I'll drag you in my story of love ...
One day I'll get your hand in my hand ..
One day I'll kiss your hands so warm;

One day I'll show you what you mean to me ..
One day I'll make you listen how my heart beats ..
One day I'll take you to a world beyond imagination...
One day I'll give you all the  happiness you want.

One day I'll kiss you on your cheeks ...
One day I'll make you blush like the princess..
one day I'll take up all your pains ..
One day I'll heal all your wounds ;

All you need to do is trust me deep ...
All you need to do is show faith in me ...
I promise i will give you the best you deserve ...
And show you why i luv you till infinity.

I am in love and a guy in love is so very mad...
Madness of your love is so intense you won't believe ...
One day I'll run up to you with all l have with me ...
That day I'll propose you and tell you why you're my destiny...

I let different boys touch me
Because I wanted to know
Even for a second
What it felt like to be loved
Even if the love was cheap
And it tasted like ***
Like the punchline to a joke
I never got because it was me

I let different boys have different parts of me
Parts they didn't deserve
But I offered up willingly because I couldn't give anything else
after you broke me
I was looking for different fingers
to place different pieces and hoping  the outcome
would be a masterpiece
Maybe one of them would find a way
to cover up the handprints you left all over me

I let different boys touch me because I had to prove to myself
you wouldn't be the only one
that these scars marking my body wouldn't define
my worth to be loved
I am not entirely sure  
you aren't the only one who could ever touch me without slightly  flinching

I let different boys touch me because that is all I have been taught
To be a joke
To be silent
To be ready to give until you have nothing left
- they keep leaving me and I am to scared to offer up anything more than my body to get them to stay