Constant fear of falling
falling in
falling out
falling alone
falling with no one to catch me
                                           falling just to fall
                                                                           once again
feeling the pain of the pointless fall
unable to speak up
unable to stand up
unable to show up
stranded in a universe where gravity is much stronger
than I will ever be
Holding me down
Keeping me grounded
Keeping me humbled.
Keeping my mindset programmed in a way
so that I'll never feel enough
so that I'll never fell your love
Sabotage becomes self-care in a universe where
I CAN'T GET UP
Speaking so loud, that no one can hear me
Thinking so fast, that no one can follow me
Laying so still, that no one will stay with me
CONSTANT
FEAR
OF
FALLING